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2011-12-24T16:19:00.002+08:00

Hi, im back to my blog after nearly another 3 months. Time is flying too fast that I din know it has been 3 months since my last post.

Packed myself with a lot of things and I would like to conclude that it's a transformation year for me.

Reflection and new year resolution.

Rumours saying 21 Dec 2012 is the end of the world so no new year resolution needed.

Do you believe it's actually end of the year within a year? What happen if it's not? I'm more conservative so im planning life that will last me another 30-40yrs.

So, anything related to buy/sell/rent in Singapore, do look for me =)

email: emailtopennyng@gmail.com

Meanwhile, promote my property website: singaporepropertydeal.com

cheers =)

Some fresh air needed...

2011-10-04T23:28:00.003+08:00

3 months later. i finally logged on to my blog to get some fresh air.

Life is filled with too much commitments when you grew older.
No one seems to bother what's ur current situation, the whole picture.
No doubt at all, money is the devil of all things and yet we need it desperately.

A dream for a comfort place is simply too greedy in this world.
Try hard for my dream but it's still failing, but i think im getting nearer!
I truly hope someone who denies me, someone grew me up, will know me one day, after seeing where I channel my energy and money to...

Life is too mysterious that you need to uncover in the mist yourself...
No problem to lost in the mist but must get back to track eventually...

Hmm, one day has just passed and i dunno if i did something more meaningful than yesterday. I hope I did.

World peace! Wish I have inner peace and become happier =))

般若波罗蜜多心经唐三藏法师玄奘译

2011-07-04T21:18:00.003+08:00

观自在菩萨行深般若波罗蜜多时
照见五蕴皆空度一切苦厄

舍利子
色不异空空不异色
色即是空空即是色
受想行识亦复如是

舍利子
是诸法空相不生不灭
不垢不净不增不减
是故空中无色无受想行识
无眼耳鼻舌身意无色声香味触法
无眼界乃至无意识界
无无明亦无无明尽
乃至无老死亦无老死尽
无苦集灭道无智亦无得以无所得故

菩提萨陲依般若波罗蜜多故
心无挂碍无挂碍故无有恐怖
远离颠倒梦想究竟涅盘

三世诸佛依般若波罗蜜多故
得阿耨多罗三藐三菩提

故知般若波罗蜜多
是大神咒是大明咒是无上咒
是无等等咒能除一切苦真实不虚

故说般若波罗蜜多咒
即说咒曰揭谛揭谛波罗揭谛
波罗僧揭谛菩提娑婆诃
般若波罗密多心经

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就这么短？好像还有更长的Ｖｅｒｓｉｏｎ．
无论如何，先把这个背熟。。

愿共勉之
－－－－－－－－－－－－－－
找到不错心经的解释,链接自这里。

经文注解
【观自在菩萨。】
「观自在菩萨」，观世音菩萨可指观世音菩萨。这里的「观自在菩萨」表示观照般若已经自在无碍了的菩萨，不一定指观世音。

【行深般若波罗蜜多时，照见五蕴皆空，度一切苦厄。】
「行深般若波罗蜜多时」在修行深般若的时候。深般若波罗蜜，加一「深」字就分别于小乘也能修习般若，而是大乘才可以明白入手的般若。
「照见五蕴皆空」
「照」，有心叫作想，无心就叫作照。照的意思是离开我们的妄念，像镜子照东西一样，明明白白，清清楚楚。
「五蕴」蕴是指“类、堆”。佛把世间一切事物总分为五蕴（五类），分别是：色、受、想、行、识。
「色蕴」是物质这方面，一切万物，凡眼所见，耳所闻，鼻所嗅，舌所尝、身所觉，以及意所想到的东西都是色蕴。
「受蕴」我们现在看见了风扇，看见有一台风扇，脑子就有所领受，内心生起一种领纳的作用，来领纳乐境（乐受）、苦境（苦受）及不苦不乐境（舍受）。
「想蕴」就是种种思想。
而我们这个想是念念不断的，念念迁流就是「行蕴」。
「识蕴」是我们能够了别、认识，例如上述风扇转动发声，人最初只听到声音，随即知道是声音，这是耳识；同时传达到意，能分别了知这是风扇转动所发的声音，这就是意识。
所以五蕴里，四个说的都是心，都是精神方面的，只有一个色蕴是有关物质方面的。五蕴都遮盖我们本性，是妙明真心的障碍。
［五蕴皆空］，五蕴没有任何一蕴不是空。也就是说世间事物都是“空”的。
「度一切苦厄」 “苦”是痛苦，“厄”是穷困疾厄。佛认为人世间充满了苦，而人生最基本苦有［八苦］，即：生、老、病、死、「怨憎会」、「爱别离」、「求不得苦」、「五蕴炽盛」（色受想行识这五种东西很盛，荫盖了你，使你的妙明真心不能显现，因此你有烦恼，这是苦的根本。）。如何去除这些苦，得到真正的自在是佛法的根本目的。观自在菩萨在修习甚深的大智慧到彼岸时，以般若妙慧观照世间事物，了达五蕴并非实有，当体即空，因此能「度一切苦厄」。

佛，我皈依你了

2011-07-04T20:21:00.002+08:00

很久没有上来抒发自己的心情了，
所以我觉得自己就快得忧郁症了。

没有人听到我的倾诉，没有人带我离开那深渊，
我继续被金钱蹂躏，被她带着笑脸碾过我的身心...

如果有人带我离开，并给我的灵魂添上快乐的颜色，我会一直感激他.

我已经竭力了，无力向我曾经幻想的日子走进一步。

我跟很多人说，我这样下去我会得忧郁症，我并不胡说。
有人说，忧郁症是会传染的，我不否认。

我觉得自己的思想越来越极端，越来越不健康。

到底谁能够带我走？

大舅常要我念心经，他说那能在我失落时带给我平静，给我力量并带我走向对的方向。
刚认识的友人说，佛教带她走过很多失落的日子，那是她的力量。

我想，我需要一个精神寄托，一个宗教。

佛，我皈依你了。。。

New Blog

2011-04-23T09:12:00.007+08:00

Hi Guys....

As most of you know, I have just returned from Bali. I really love Bali... I have decided to share the information I collected and my travel experiences. However, I feel this blog isnt suitable as it contains too much of my personal secrets that I dont wish to reveal to others/public..

This blog has been serving me well for years after my wretch.cc blog... I love writing non sense on my wall and pollute my readers' eyes...haha

Now, I have decided to open a new blog to write about travel & food- a more proper blog without much pollution but more information. I can't leave travelling behind in my life.. I knew it...

So, please support my new blog : travel-cuisine.blogspot.com.

I may still come back this nie-zi's blog for very personal thing that I wish only close friends know it...

Cheers =)

Most wanted target of year 2011

2011-03-21T22:19:00.005+08:00

Another post. Hardly seen me as a frequent blogger after I started working...

Well, i just can't wait to announce my largest target of the year!!

Many people would think that I wanna get married but hell, no one wanna marry me...and i also dont want to get married with minimal financial base.

So...my dream for this year is to quit fingernails biting!!

This bad habit has been bothering me since I have memory. Grandparents tried to quit it by saying fingernails biting would curse parents and those taboos. but i failed to quit them.

Most recent action i have taken was in 2006-2007 i think. I used to study & camp at Christine's house during exam period. She had the same bad habit too and her bf got her a bitter solution to apply on fingernails. Everytime you bite, you get the bitter taste which reminds you to stop biting. I applied during my camping which could last to 2 weeks. She succeeded after 1 month but I failed. I like bitterguord so the solution couldn't stop me.

So...I need the determined will power to keep me motivated and reminded that I NEED TO QUIT FINGERNAILS BITING.

Wear glove, apply bitter solution or fingernails polish are the solutions found but none are suitable. Firstly, we are not in winter country and it's just not feasible for my work. Apply solution and polish aren't any good idea cause i need to handle food everyday!! How I can make bitter sausage??

Looking for other solutions...

You might ask why I need to quit after so many years? Cause someone promised to bring me to cruise all at his expense and I envy those with pretty manicure creations... I can quit it by this year!! please remind me not to bite when u see it!

Well, I can control myself during normal days but not when I'm stressed out and possibly having daydream! I think it's just as hard as quit smoking and it will come back (according to my online research :p)

Dying hair again after 5yrs

2011-03-20T20:39:00.006+08:00

Yea. Remember my first hair dying was 2006 CNY. But i cut it after 1 week. Hair turned out extremely dry and totally unmanaged as I coloured and permed the hair at one go. That's the painful experience that I dare not dye and perm hair anymore. After the hair grew back to my previous shine, I started to perm my hair again in 2010 CNY and it turned out good in dark hair.

Today, I went to Shirley Mah, at jurong west for my haircut. When I take buses, I always see this neighbourhood saloon packed with people so I was telling everyone that I wanna give a try next time. On this lovely Sunday, the shop has merely few customers and I got it with student price $14.40 (normal price $16). The boss offered student price when I asked about the price.. (Hee, I look young, boh bian =P) Anyway, the hair cut is not fantastic. So so loh...

After the hair cut, I dyed my hair with the famous liese bubble product. Got it with marshmallow brown. I was a little bit nervous and my bf did not get the hair dying process right that I decided to carry on myself..There was a 10min time lagging and hence the result was not pleasant - uneven colours.

The colour on top are good but hair below ear length remains dark... Sad... I hope it's not too obvious/ugly... omg... I think it is too obvious that I dyed it myself...

Anyway, i had a great and lazy weekend. Always hope the sunday can stay a little longer but it always goes too fast. I will start counting the day again... OMG MONDAY!!!

Happy Anniversary

2011-03-14T22:46:00.001+08:00

Love is in the air.
HAppY aNniVersary to us.
Iphone is real cool =D

2011-03-13T18:16:00.004+08:00

常常来到自己的空间，想要写些什么，却不知道要写些什么。

就只能写些现在的生活吧，也不外乎工作、爱人和朋友。别忘了还有每个星期四的瑜伽课，对于我这种3分钟热度的人来说，坚持上了一年多的瑜伽课，代表我真的很喜欢。其实，新加坡的生活真的有的无聊，但也挺不错的。星期天依然很放松，很悠闲地跟爱人看看戏、做做饭、做做家务...

工作还是老样子，但是如上次看塔罗牌的预测，我有机会上课学习，是好的。所以我会去花些钱上这个课，然后去考试。若通过考试，我就有一个证，也挺想拥有的一个证。

爱人还是老样子，有时候气死我，有时候他被我的无理取闹气死...呵呵。今天是我们牵手纪念日，3年了...呵呵...

朋友，各有各忙的。有位朋友正办分居手续，有些遗憾。因为性格不合，还没办华人婚礼，所以他们决定离婚了... 惋惜啊！婚姻好像真的很脆弱, 生活在一起2年了，忍不住了，平静地协议分开。希望他们各自会找到更适合自己的另一半。所以说，不要找最好的，要找最适合自己的。

我呢，要努力赚钱，最近花在脸上的钱越来越不受控了，但我真需要啊！努力赚钱！！！

Sense of Fulfilling!

2011-03-05T20:14:00.006+08:00

Feeling great after achieving another dream - to climb mount Kinabalu.

It's never an easy task to me and it's more difficult than I thought, especially to an asthma patient. The biggest challenge I had was the breathing difficulties. Until I was really near to the peak, i rested 5min every 10steps to get my breathing back.

So folks, please train yourself, physically, mentally and the breathing part! try to get some acute mountain sickness medicine before the trip.

Sabah is a very relaxing place with nice people around. Either the passenger or the people doing business such as backpack hostel staff or the car rental lady boss.

Wish to go back for a relaxing holiday soonest. Ah, wish to stay in Shangri La Hotel for a night or 2 with love one... It's toooo romantic!

After coming back, I have to adjust and fasten my pace to adapt to the fast pace of concrete city. Start facing the cruel fact, the cruel people and the cruel work again...

I love the holiday because of the slow pace, the nice people, the achievement, the travelmate!!

It's time to be anxious for next leave application for my Bali Trip!

我的朋友呢？

2011-02-14T14:25:00.004+08:00

最近发现，我的朋友少得可怜。
也不是很少，只是发现可谈心的朋友不多了，
不然就是好友各有各忙，少聊天了。
或许长大以后，每个人心中多了很多很多秘密,
不太愿与朋友分享...

实在伤心...
我的好友们，多多联络我这个宅女吧。。。

我就是懒惰出门而已，心还在！

说到过年，今年春节过得好快。
初3就好像过完年了，红包拿完了，但却见了好多朋友。
长大了，就不想过年了吗？

我...今天心情emo~ emo~~~
没心情工作~~~

anyway,还是要祝大家情人节快乐！

She is ugly

2011-01-27T19:29:00.004+08:00

Well, things can be quite brightful now. However, I can't endure and agree her behaviour. She is really UGLY, from the heart.

Though I dislike her and minimise the contact but my new colleague starts showing dissatiscation to her. I, pray for the peacefulness in the office...

Although i'm really angry for not respecting our decision and keep me out of the event that I have been working hard on. I dunno what's she planning and I do not wish to guess what's her next stop after backstabbing. I do not fear, I have done everything right and now I have someone to stand one line with me.

She is ugly!! She does not know the beauty of respect and too gan chiong will really mess things up! I think she does many charity work to cover up her sins during office hours. That does not help, ok?

I should really start saving hard and learn investment in case I dont like the job anymore I can quit without financial burden! Or she backstabs me till I lost my job XD

To myself: No worries, rabbit is kind to me =)

Friday 5m TOTO, at least 1M is mine then I can quit the job anytime and fulfil my dreams =))

感慨2010

2011-01-24T22:46:00.007+08:00

2011 来了，1月很快又要走了，接下来迎接我期盼已久的兔年！

犯太岁的这一年，老实说很难过。
2009年好像离我很久很久了，
回头看看那个活泼乐观豁达的自己，说声久违了。

过了2010，感觉自己变了很多很多。
我少了那份稚气；多了踏实工作，务实生活的性格。
我经历了不断被否认的日子，凡事不是乐观就可以完成；
我开始变得很悲观懦弱，少说少错成了我的名言。
看看过去的日子，可以很帅气地辞职去个41天的背包旅行，
说去欧洲念书就去，冰天雪地也敢单枪匹马去；
现在的我连一份让人低士气的工作我只说，却不敢贸贸然辞职，
只有一直寻找新的机会，决不能断一个月的收入。
就一年，我已被现实狼狈地踩在脚底下，
做一个默默期待月尾银行进帐的那刻。
很快，就多了一份房贷，
就算买0机票，都要三思。
旅行已不能成为必然的事情，它已被推为Something you want, not you need.

突然，我憎恨自己变成这样。
奈何，我被现实屈服...

期待那刻TOTO让我中头奖，我可以继续圆梦...脱离现实的捆绑。

刚好，今天与同事谈起TOTO,同事说每个星期5毛是不能省的，反正买不到什么东西。
哪天你刚好财运到，就发了。
开始了解为什么这里的Singapore pool永远都排长龙，永远都不缺西装打领带的人在排着队...
我似乎也快加入他们那行列。。。
但别忘了，不管中了多少钱，都要把一半的钱放进银行做个1年以上的定期存款，因为那一年是你的冷静期...不放，迟早连本带利还回去。

I love sausage, no?

2011-01-16T21:08:00.008+08:00

I supposed to have yoga lesson each Thursday but I'm getting more and more tired each day after working. Last Thursday, I fell slept at 7.30pm and hence missed my yoga. I had missed it 2 times out of 4 lessons so far!

Now, he starts having dissatisfaction towards HER and called me up on Friday 11pm and I hit the énd bottom at 1am+. Basically he shows his dissatisfaction to HER, and he feels i have no heart to learn from him. HE and SHE both will be having real conflict soon, no? they are not giving and taking steps which both have the same characters. I dont want to be the one sandwich between them. Help~~

Now, I'm trying to convince myself that I like making sausages. I dont mind the meaty smell and I'm strong enough to handle the process. This skill will be helpful for future career prospect. Therefore, I will be studying the history and theory after working and learn the practical thing from him during working hours! I hope I make the right choice. This is not my interest but when opportunity comes, I should grab and learn it!

so, sausages making in the morning and sausage research at night!
I know I'm hardworking girl, I love sausage!

i know different types of european sausages and asian sausages.
i know how to cook and smoke and its parameters and processes.
i know the different casings and the origin.
i know the additive, the usage, the regulation and the supplier.
i know how to pronounce the sausage name.

i know i know everything about sausages, frankfurters!
I'm the expert~! I will be !

2011 来咯！

2011-01-04T11:38:00.006+08:00

2010

1. 我要变美女，并有良好的体重管理。

2. 我要努力存钱挣钱为下个梦想奋斗。

3. 我要做个出色的厨师。

4. 我要做个精明的女人,包括财务消费处理等等...hohoho...

5. 我要买Oven,学烤面包。

6. 我要学包饺子。

我的2010 new year resolution是以上...

1. 有变美一点点。。体重管理还不错但仍在努力中，而我也相信这永远是我的continuous and top new year resolution each year...

2. 有存到钱，也仍在继续努力中...其实也算达到了梦想的一半！yeah!

3. 出色的厨师嘛，没达到。呵呵

4. 还要继续努力

5. OVEN 不再出现在新年愿望里了，除非我搬进自己的家..

6. 没有学到。

回顾一下2010年，过得非常平淡却也参杂着些许的痛苦。虎年犯太岁，真的不容易过。事业运非常的不好，被上司弄哭过两次，真的很丢脸。2010年最大的收获是我有一班很好很好的同事，我们真的是相亲相爱，互相鼓励和帮忙。

至于旅程，我很谦虚地说，我只去了曼谷和香港。两个都是所谓的购物天堂。都好玩，曼谷的衣物很便宜，买到很过瘾；香港的化妆保养品实在便宜，依然对sasa & bonjour 念念不忘~

2010努力地存钱，也真的有看到一点点钱，这一点一滴赚回来的钱让我离梦想近一点。关于这点，我很欣慰。

似乎没有什么值得令我回味的，难道这就表示我确实离开了学生生涯，当了朝８晚７的上班族吗？只有工作的回忆，庆幸的是我有王先生和我一起渡过这些粗茶淡饭兼无趣的日子...

新的一年，旧的愿望，新的努力！　

愿望继续保留，努力要加倍！

可以期盼的是，新的一年会去３个邻国旅行；我会被抽中ｗｉｎ　ａ　ｃｏｎｄｏ的头奖，我将会有新家，让我当个包租婆，那就可以炒老板鱿鱼！哈哈哈

Nothing beats the happiness in daily life! My resignation letter is ready!

2010-12-16T11:00:00.004+08:00

I'm unhappy...I suddenly feel that nothing in the world beats the happiness in daily life. Yet, it's the hardest thing to achieve in the world for majority of the population in Singapore and Malaysia.

We have so little time to do our favourite things while most the time contributes to the thing we have to do, we need to do for others. We have so much responsible in life that sometimes make us feel breathless.

For a job, we work for predominantly money for most of the employees and I do believe that only a small portion of us are working for passion, for interest and love. Agree it. You study certain courses for the potential bright future. Nowadays, Doctor ain't study with the only thought to save, to cure patients. You chose mechanical engineer cause everyone said it provides wider job opportunities. I study food and nutrition for the passion but when I come to work, I'm unhappy...

Continue to stay because my lovely colleagues but I'm unhappy with my boss and job scope. She is extremely biased and fake to max. Therefore, to pursue my happiness, I decided to quit. I dont want to make myself miserable each day. My resignation letter is ready in an enclosed envelope. Wait for the right time to tender.

Next, I will still look for food and nutrition work to match my academic attainment until I'm really fed up with the job and I have enough capital to make myself living without much money concern... That could be long long way to go...

Several things that would really make me happy at this moment are:
1. Quit this job by not seeing the bitch in future! I hate seeing her face everyday now.
2. Go to ChiangMai for the same volunteer work again.. I miss the innocent faces and contented faces with even a pair of shoes.
3. Go to travel around the world... Just be a free backpacker.
4. Earn money by not working for others! Cause I really dont like see those bossy faces...

Wish me for the best! While I wish all of the best for rabbit year! I can't wait for its arrival cause Tigerers will have a good year ahead :D

12.5 working days to go before I could bravely tender the letter ^_^
Hope each day will be smoother till then as I have already tried to minimise the contact (either eye contact or communication!).

Bitch

2010-12-14T20:16:00.003+08:00

She is hitting my tolerance limit. I have no energy to complain her. I just have to endure 13 more working days and I will show you the long waited love letter.

She is really too much, sarcastic and having too much personal feeling in the work. She did not come and back on time but she requested us to come 10min earlier than official working and we have to go back 15min later than official working hour. We calculated, she makes us rugi at least $5000 annually for making unnecessary OT!

Apparently, she, she and me are looking for job..Please inform me if you know any food tech/nutritionist job openings! Can't wait to run away from her. Bitch!

BC said women shouldnt work after 30 years old. Old women on work are simply hard to please... I'm waiting to be free from working life...so,only another 6 more working years for me?? heee

安妮的婚礼

2010-12-08T22:36:00.003+08:00

那天，千里迢迢坐夜巴到吉隆坡...
昏昏欲睡了4小时，近6点我们就爬起来洗刷化妆开始准备兄弟的游戏...
我们起身时，屋里的其他人都说我们迟了...

经过2个小时的梳妆整顿自己，8点出我们准备了兄弟的好料~
9点正就听到pu pu 声...
开始了一连串的游戏，在RM400的红包下我们开门了...
这群兄弟挺不错，很ON!
只有一个一开始自称是大吟姐的兄弟，不停不停地念我们很残忍,
可我们觉得我们已经很仁慈了！

再到男方家敬茶，拖拖拉拉到3点左右我们才到酒店，
睡午觉的小欲望破灭，继续冲凉准备晚宴的装扮...
6点正，我们又启程到酒店了.

我爱死那地方-- bankers club.
浪漫豪华书香气洋溢的宴席...
他们的婚礼虽然只有15桌，但温馨无比 ...

从我们回来第4天，我们整个办公室依然围绕着那天的幸福气息...
虽然如此，我却没有想婚的感觉...
现在的我喜欢迟婚了 :x

看着Annie 和 Keen Leong,简直是一幅幸福鸳鸯，煞死旁人...
我还在回味着 Leong 说起他们的开始...
Annie 还不断说他们现在的爱很saturated! OMG!!

我还在等照片~

人生无常

2010-11-26T23:42:00.003+08:00

想跟auntie说安息吧。
到黄泉会您老伴去，
两个一起做对鸳鸯，
也不错的。

距离被诊断到肺癌的时间不到半年，
您已离我们而去，也好，不会被病魔折腾太久。

想说，自从您病后，
我偶尔会想起你，
跟你聊天的时刻，
听说聊起您和老伴的故事，
儿子媳妇孙子的趣事...
还有您做的小吃...

一切画幕还是那么清晰
你却走了，不带走这一切...

我的泪珠儿挤得眼眶满满的，
超越眼眶负荷而滑下脸蛋...

一路走好，auntie.
记得找到uncle 让他在黄泉也一样疼惜你

我想，auntie除了无法走路的女儿担心之外，也没有什么遗憾的。
离开或许是好事，可我真的想念您。

我在想，如果有一天，我要离开这人世间，我会有遗憾吗？
uncle ong说我一定有一堆的list,没错，我有很多很多事情没完成...
那就代表我对生命还有很多梦想和期待！好事吧！
但我一定会征聘杀手，在我断了气那刻，也把uncle ong ong杀了，不然他会被折磨的..

在追梦的同时，别忘了家里的两老...陪他们看看电视，做做家务，吹吹牛也挺好。
我告诉自己，我要常回家看看那银发逐渐增加的父母，免得成为我的遗憾！

户口里空空如也...

2010-11-20T22:03:00.003+08:00

想说。。

最近银行户口的数字让我好沮丧！
努力了一年还是没看到什么钱~！哎～！

１２月最好来个ＡＷＳ！
不然我很不爽自己！
明年得好好规划理财的事宜！

但是明年已经买了３个地方的机票，都是ＡＡ的超便宜机票，要例子吗？
SG-KK - Return SGD45
SG-Bali - Return SGD45.50
SG-Yogyakarta - Return SGD43

所以明年的旅行close case了！
其实很伤心，因为不能跟好友去台湾...
真的没办法了，钱和年假都是问题！

另外，要节制花费在护肤品上，
爱美到很夸张了！

Festive Mood

2010-11-12T23:58:00.002+08:00

year end is always happening.
HK trip was ended beautifully.
Awesome Ocean Park, good cosmetic shopping and nice dim sum and roasted meats!!

After been to HK, I appreciate Singapore so much. We have better building maintenance, better & cheaper transport, less crowded and bigger space!! HK is famous for the tiny space and i totally experienced it myself. The size of the hostel I stayed is the size of the toilet I had in Macau.

Though it rains 3 out of 5 days but it was still a good and memorable trip. I miss Sasa and Bonjour the most as they are selling superb cheap and good cosmetic stuff! dont miss it if you been to HK!

Well, after 4 working days upon returning, I'm going back to PG for 4 days! It was supposed to be 5 days but stupid Tiger reschedule my flight. NEVER EVER choose TIGER regardless of the low fare! You are having high risk of delayed one day flight or even cancel flight without prior notice!! I have been hearing enough of cases!!

Now, I have to pray hard that my CNY chu liu ticket wont be cancelled. I shouldnt buy it so early - 11months ago! But it is cheap lah~ Let's pray for me!!

That's all for now. Festive mood =D

工作满一年

2010-10-31T18:22:00.006+08:00

在fb 分享了兔年的运程~
我期待兔年的来临，因为都是正面的！

我近来无恙，多两天就是工作1周年
记得那年我离职那天也是工作刚刚满一年
2007/5/15-2008/5/14
我的印象特别深刻...
记得5/13我还收到他送到办公室的那束花.
那是他送我的第2束花，
第3束是在英国念书时的周年纪念礼物
是一位天使代他送的。
那是他送我的最后一束花,
好久好久了...
呵呵

反正送鲜花是很浪费钱，
而且也过了所谓的热恋期，所以还好。

上次的离去是为了继续深造;
这次我会做得比1年长，但未必比2年长。
让我们看看兔年事业走势如何吧！

那天报道说时下的年轻人打同一份工作的寿命是2年，
其实想说确实如此。
继续跳才能让薪水跟着跳！
不然哪来的钱置业？
最近的新马报道也说了，
现在的房产跟薪水不成对比，
大学毕业生做了几年工，努力存钱，也付不起头期和贷款！
在大马工作的大学生更惨，还要供车，加上供房子的贷款，
简直就是典型帮银行打工一族！

我，终于脱离学生转型到打工一族的transition period.
很多事情不得不好好计划,尤其是财务计划！
从年轻开始就计划，绝对没错！
另外，开始物色产业，再惨我都要有一个房子！
属于我们自己的温馨小家！
我不喜欢帮人家供房子，
不喜欢看到喜欢的家具、电脑、电视、厨房用具
因为租房子而不能买！
房子是资产，绝对不会错！

------------------------------------------------------
年尾是让人雀跃的--
口袋会多了一点钱；
公共假期会多了一点；
生日庆典会比较多一点；
旅行也是必然的！

年尾就像朝9晚5上班一族最喜欢的周末；
比较放松，但它也溜得特别快..

Deepavali 长假期会在香港度过；
Haji 会回老家走走去；
12月的圣诞节和新年倒还没想好...
不过我想去旅游会很贵，也很多人...
或许是个好好休息的长假！

2011年，快到了，您准备好迎接它了吗？
我准备好了！

2010-10-17T20:28:00.001+08:00

每个人都有一段低潮期~

我想，虎年大概是我的低潮期吧~
犯太岁的虎年快快去，我要可爱的兔年

v马来西亚的华人，是个怎么样的存在？(全文，作者在中国留学)转帖

2010-10-17T20:24:00.001+08:00

第一、尴尬的存在

场景1

当我刚到中国时，人们问我的第一个问题总是：“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”紧接着“来到中国多说年了？”、“难道是从小学汉语吗？”

场景2

当时我和中文系的辩论队一起看01年的国际大专辩论赛决赛，马来亚大学的三辩提到“日本军在南京大屠杀凌虐我中华妇女”，有位同学问我“你们也提中华妇女吗？”

从我到中国以来，以上的情况遇上了无数遍，于是我很早就想写一篇文章来告诉大家：马来西亚的华人是一个什么样的存在。这个题目很大，我只能从我切身的体会和感受来写这篇文章。

缘起

先用一个大家都熟悉的历史背景来做开场白。1840以来，中国进入了一个动乱的时期。一方面，好些中国人想往外逃窜；另一方面，西方列强想捉苦力到东南亚地区为他们服务。于是，大量的中国人（尤其是福建、广东一带）就散布到东南亚各个地区，其中就包括了马来西亚。

尴尬的存在

当人家问我“你的汉语怎么说得那么好啊？”这么一个简单的问题时，我还真觉得这不是一句话就能解释的问题。最简单的回答就是：“因为我祖先是中国人”，但是有人又会问：“那么为什么好多印尼人就不会说汉语了呢？”问题的复杂之处就在这里。

从迁居到马来西亚，我们的先贤就特别重视中文的教育，通过私塾、宗祠等单位教授三字经、四书五经等教材，后来随着中国教育体制的改革而改革。这个时期，我们的祖先基本上还是以中国人自居，黄花岗七十二烈士就有二十九人是华侨、抗日战争时期全体华侨出钱出力、著名的华侨陈嘉庚创办厦大、集美大学。。。。。。这样的事情不胜枚举。

后来，随着居住马来西亚日久，我们的命运渐渐在这片土地上生了根。从马来西亚（大马）方面来看，我们开始更多地关注大马的政治，与马来族、印度族联手争取从英国的殖民统治中独立。从中国方面来看，周恩来总理提出：华侨应在其居住地生根发芽。但是，不变的是：我们始终坚持自己的母语教育。

在印尼，由于当地华侨没有组成统一的阵线，于是他们不能拥有中文名字、不能庆祝农历新年；在中国人普遍认为完好地传承了中华文化的新加坡，李光耀总理主动地消灭了中文教育，关闭了新加坡唯一以中文为教学媒介的南洋大学，全体人民学习英文，于是目前多数新加坡人的母语是英语。如今，随着中国的崛起，中文的“经济”价值日益提高，许多东南亚国家才掀起了“汉语热”。唯一的例外是马来西亚，因为我们的先贤从头到尾就没有以“经济”作为考量，而是从“民族文化”出发。

那么，难道马来西亚就没有遭遇当地政府的阻挠吗？有！而且很大！马来西亚教育终极的目标是：以马来语为唯一的教学媒介语，换言之，华语、淡米尔语的中小学迟早都得消灭。60年代，大马政府规定：只有以马来语为教学媒介语的学校才能获得政府的津贴，于是许多中文中学纷纷改制，变为政府中学。这时，我们的先贤，以林连玉先生为代表，明确地提出：学习母语是每个民族的天赋人权，即使不要一分钱的津贴，我们也要办独立中学！

于是，马来西亚的华文教育保留了下来，华小以及民办的独立中学、学院形成完整的中文教育的体系，甚至创立了“全马来西亚独立中学统一考试”，受全球各高校承认（除了马来西亚的大学），我们基本上就是以这张文凭为基础考进北大的。在这个过程中，多少先贤抛头颅、洒热血，林连玉先生被褫夺公民权、好多人被大马政府关押、无数的民众以自己的血汗钱支持独立中学。

但是，来到中国，没有人知道这一切。不止中国，我相信全世界的人都不知道这一切，不知道被我们称为“族魂”的林连玉，不知道马来西亚的华人用血、汗和泪水来争取母语教育的权利。于是，中国的同学反过来问我们：“为什么你们会说汉语？”时，我真觉得这是巨大的讽刺。

尤其，当中国同学问起我：“为什么你们也说‘中华妇女’？”时——尽管不理智——我还是立时火了：“为什么日军侵袭时，马来西亚的华人要出钱出力？为什么同一年发生缅甸风灾和四川大地震时，我们华人对后者的捐款额要远远大于前者，我们难道就没有资格称自己为‘中华民族’吗？”

当我来到北大的图书馆文学图书时，看着满目的“美国文学”、“印度文学”。。。。。。当我看到“新加坡文学”，而没看到“马来西亚文学”时，我更感到十分凄凉，以至于讽刺。我们浴血抗战，创建了一套完整的中文教育体系，有完整的“马华文学”，而这一切在中华文化的发源地——中国是得不到承认的。反倒是曾经废除过南大的新加坡，由于其更为强大的国势，反而被认为是在海外完整地传承了中华文化的国家。

“尴尬”之处就在于此：努力地捍卫中华文化，不为马来西亚政府承认，亦不为世人所知，里外不是人。这就是马来西亚华人第一种存在：尴尬的存在。

第二、独立的存在

独立的存在，另一个说法是孤立的存在。“马来西亚华人”这个词儿意味着：我们是马来西亚人，但不是马来人（中国朋友最大的误会~囧）；我们是华人，但不是中国人。于是，一种特殊的群体和文化产生了，独立于世界之林。

我们跟其他马来西亚人（例如马来人、印度人）的差别很明显，黄皮肤在一片黑色的人海之中额外显眼，不同的语言、不同的文化。但是，在日常生活中我们相处得十分融洽——-马来人其实真的是很好相处的，什么种族冲突全是政府搞出来的——-整个群体都受到马来族极大的影响，这就铸成了我们好多的共同点，而与他们的这些共同点恰恰就是我们和中国人的相异之处。

最明显的差异就是口头表达。首先是口音，我朋友总说：“看你的时候一点都不像外国人，但你一说话我们就马上知道了。”在辩论赛场上时，我的一口马来腔更是显得极为突兀。所谓马来西亚口音，大概就是广东腔+福建腔，翘舌少、轻声较少（个人认为）、没有儿化、语调趋平。其次是词汇，以中文词汇为主体，再加上各种方言、马来语、英语的词汇，各种语气词“啦”、“咯”、“哄”层出不穷。大家有兴趣的话，可以去百度打“马来西亚VS中国”，马上就能找到许多具体的例子。

但是，我以为：更深层的差距不在嘴巴，而在脑子里。有一次，中文系的徐艺峰师兄领着我们留学生辩论队讨论一个辩题，他最感叹的就是：“如果是跟中国学生讨论，第三个衡量标准一定是‘何者更有利于社会主义的建设’。”看看中国同学的课就知道，什么思修、毛概、邓小平思想、军事理论，这些似乎都离我们的生活很远很远。冷战时期资本主义阵营和社会主义阵营的分家就决定了我们意识形态上的不同。

撇开这个问题不谈，即使同样都继承了中华文化，两地的继承也是有所不同的。在这里，大部分的人都信仰“无神论”。但是，我们那里好多人都还信仰观十八罗汉、观音娘娘、关公、济公、齐天大圣等，不一而足。不止大量的神庙，我们还保留了大量的宗祠、会馆，并且还在华人社区发挥着一定的作用。由于我对中国的现代化进程还算有一定的了解，以上这些还不足以让我惊讶，真正让我吃惊的是中国风气的开放。校内校外，情侣相拥亲吻的情况无所不在，这还真不是我想象中的中国。当然，我们那里也有很开放的人，但是可以肯定的是：马来西亚的华人普遍上要比中国人保守得多（嗯~至少跟我的家乡相比）。

此外，许多大马华人一致公认的是：中国学生真的很多“学术牛人”，大体上比我们那儿的人要勤劳的多。中国人多竞争大，我所认识的每位同学一个个都是从高考的腥风血雨中杀出来的英雄豪杰，他们那股永不言倦的冲劲着实让我们折服。相较而言，马来西亚人则比较慵懒，更倾向于做自己喜欢的事、享受自己的人生。因此，我们玩起来比较放浪形骸，比较不顾形象，大声吵、大声笑、大声闹。

既不是马来人，也不是中国人，我们仿佛就是另一种程度上的混血儿，所以或许我们有点孤单。但是，这或许就是我们独特的优势：既传承了悠久的中华文化，又成长在一个相对宽松自由的舆论环境，想法更自由、更多元。所以，即使我们这个群体在世界上似乎很孤立，但如果让我有机会选择，我仍然愿意出生在马来西亚，当马来西亚的华人。

第三、悲壮的存在

“宝剑锋自磨砺出，梅花香自苦寒来”，这一句俗语在马来西亚人身上得到绝佳的体现。在过去，马来人、华人、印度人曾经联手争取了国家的独立；但是，随着马来人逐渐独掌大权（再注：对马来人的抨击仅限政治人物），华人、印度人的地位也日渐衰弱。首先，马来语成了唯一的官方语言。再来，马来西亚教育的最终目标定为：“使马来语成为唯一的教学媒介语”。

但是，最大的转折点是六、七十年代的“五·一三事件”。由于华人比较刻苦耐劳，比其他的民族来得富有，无形中造成了民族间的矛盾。出于权力斗争的目的，政治人物鼓动马来人屠杀华人。于是，第二任首相敦拉萨借此宣布国家进入“紧急状态”，顺势上台，颁布了一系列不平等的法令。在经济上，每家公司都至少要雇用30%的土著（其实就是马来人和其他极少部分的少数民族）；在教育上，大学也实施固打制，要保留一定的份额给土著。此外，对中文教育的打压更是变本加厉，影响力最大的就是改制事件，即不以马来语为主要教学媒介语的政府中学都领不到政府一分钱的津贴。

打压归打压，但是马来西亚华人依然在暴风雨中茁壮成长。如第一篇所述，我们发展出了一套完整的中文教育，各领域人才辈出。大家熟知的梁静茹、曹格、光亮皆是马来西亚华人；大家现在人手一支的U盘是马来西亚的潘建忠发明的；在华语辩论界上，马来西亚以其犀利的辩风在世界上占有一席之地；如今，马来西亚的十大首富中也大部分是华人。

但是，从这里我们可以看到一些很可悲的现实。大马华人自己创办的独立中学培养了无数英才那又怎样？全世界大部分高等学府都承认我们的统考文凭时，唯有马来西亚政府不承认！马来亚大学在辩坛创出赫赫威名那又怎样？在政府控制下的马来亚大学还曾经试图禁止马大的辩手参赛！梁静茹、潘建忠等辈就更加可悲了，许多人都以为他们是台湾人！潘建忠自己就说过：“如果我留在马来西亚，不可能会有今天的成就。”因为在马来西亚，华人发展的空间有限，报国无门又无法自我实现，不出国发展还能怎样？

于是，马来西亚的华人成长是成长了，可是那跟政府什么毛关系都没有。因为我们政府很慷慨，在全世界都在争夺人才时，我们政府眼看马来西亚出现人才外流的滚滚洪流仍然可以视而不见！在马来西亚大力提倡向外吸纳人才时，去看看，有多少马来西亚的人才在新加坡工作！有一次，我们国家的首相到新加坡访问，探访一间医院时，竟然有一半以上的人用马来语跟他致敬！这是何等的讽刺！

我原本把第三篇命名为“令人骄傲的存在”，可是后来改成了“悲壮”。的确，我们有很傲人的成就。可是，在我们有心报效祖国时，却只能被不公平的政策拒之国门。马来西亚那么一块宝地，没有天灾、资源丰富、文化多样，又居于世界要冲，如果真的有英明的政府，摇身变为世界强国绝非难事！反观新加坡，没有什么自然资源，又是弹丸之地，可是，现在我们只有眼睁睁看着自己的国家成了新加坡的腹地，眼看着从马来西亚分离出去的新加坡一天比一天强大！这种感觉真的很复杂，真的很难以言喻！

谓之“悲壮”，我想应该甚为贴切。

后记

可能很多人很意外，我从小时候开始就自认为自己是个中国人。从小读的书就是《西游记》、《水浒传》、《三国演义》、《杨家将》、《岳飞传》。影响我一生最大的一套书大概就是一套三十本的中国历史漫画图集。在我小小脑海中，出现的总是滚滚的黄土和快马飞驰的勇将。长大了一点，看过《中国人史纲》、《中国寓言》，偶尔会翻翻《唐诗三百首》。

那时，我真的自认为我是中国人，我的文化之根和这里的人是联系在一起的。

于是，我的梦想就是回归中国。英文我认为不重要，因为我要去中国，从没认真学；马文我更是碰都不碰，甚至常以考不好马来文自嘲。可以说，我很偏执。我只有认为有必要的东西我才会认真去学。到了高二，我的国际视野才宽广到足以让我理解英文的重要性，我从那时开始才急起直追，算是打下了一定的基础，但是绝没到“好”的程度。但是，马来文，我始终不愿意去学习，在统考中马文拿了惨兮兮的“B6”还常拿去说嘴。

去年9月，我来到了中国，就读于中国最好的大学，学习着自己最想念的中文系，一切看起来都像梦想成真。但是，来到了这里，我才第一次深刻地体会到：我是马来西亚人。我才第一次感觉到：我有可能是爱国的。在祖国成长的每一部分，不管是口音、思维等，都在我的生命里留下不可磨灭的痕迹。即使我可能算是马来西亚里最中国的一小撮人，即使我跟很多中国同学相处得不错，但是我仍然能深刻地体会到我们的不同之处。不管怎么样，在中国，只要是外国人，就真的只是外国人。

那么我到底该何去何从？这是我一整个学期都在思考的问题。在迷茫中，在摸索中，我才会写出上面的三篇文章，试图找到马来西亚华人的定位，试图找到自己的定位，然后决定自己以后要到哪里发展。我个人认为，不管是留在中国还是去到西方，就注定了只能收到单方面的信息，很难认清这个世界的真相。此外，留在中国，或许就只能是成为一个尴尬、孤立的个体。去到西方国家，那更是彻底地孤立，存活在一堆思维截然不同的陌生人之中，甚至还可能面临他们的排斥。

可能，我仍然会回去马来西亚，即使我们目前仍然要活在打压之中，即使要存活在一个难以实现自我的空间。但是，我或许可以用手中的一票继续给国阵施加那千万分之一的压力，做自己想做的事，做一个开心的人。即使薪水不高，即使物质生活不丰裕，即使很难真正地实现自我，但是只要能在自己最熟悉的家乡、跟喜欢的人在一起，幸福或许就那么简单不是吗？

梦想，在哪？

2010-09-30T15:04:00.003+08:00

灵魂依赖着梦想生存......
而我，像个没有灵魂的躯壳。

我...少了发梦的能力，
还是因无力撑起那些梦，才不敢发梦？

朋友都有好消息

2010-09-26T22:12:00.004+08:00

最近，听到好多朋友都有好消息！
求婚成功的、快要结婚的、怀孕的都有！
当年一个缅甸男生和一个中国女生在我校的国际学生会遇见，然后产生化学作用，一直从Poly时期走到今天．．．至少也有４、５年的爱情长跑吧！他们遇到不少文化差异和家人的不谅解，但他们还是选择在他们相遇的地点-Singapore Polytechnic，10/10/10, 10.10am ROM！好浪漫！祝他们长长久久，十全十美！

很多人尽可能不选虎年结婚，不生虎宝宝（所以我那个年级总是最少人的）。。。
其实我也不喜欢虎年，她会让我犯太岁，事业运好差。。。

大概牛年是最好的了！兔年应该也会不赖哦！

我也期待兔年的来临！

祝所有人都甜甜蜜蜜，顺顺利利！

我想...兔年来临的那个时刻我要许下许多愿望，希望我的愿望快快实现...

混混日子

2010-09-11T22:26:00.003+08:00

Yeah, my dar is back from China after two weeks.
You know how much he means to you after a short separation and yes again distance makes relationship fonder.

I have been telling my friends that I'm 混混日子 for my work.
Yes, it is not a smooth sailing year for Tigers, you know.
When things are beyond control, just enjoy each moment.
Oh yes, I love my colleagues, love the gossips, the kbox time...

So, nothing much to update :)

101 romantic ideas

2010-09-08T21:28:00.001+08:00

101 romantic ideas to share :p

Click here

'I wish I could know what I want'

2010-09-06T20:03:00.003+08:00

Recently, I keep asking myself, what is life?

Life always doesn't go the way ppl wish. I'm simple but I start giving myself complicated situations. I'm in the dilemma of most ppl face such as working for a job I don't really like and leading a dull working life.

I work for the sake of money. With the money, I can go travelling, buying a house which will then provide sense of belonging, going for facial and beauty products with the list going on.

But life like this is meaning less, right? I force myself to love my job & manager and stay in the company till I get the bonus. I struggle if I should book the tour and package while I worry if my leave is disapproved.

Negative thoughts are hitting me, again... Tell me, why life cannot go the way we want? However, I also lost my way... I cant figure out what's the life I want... I wish I could know what I want.......

'I wish I could know what I want' - good for thoughts?

工作的技巧

2010-07-31T09:03:00.007+08:00

那天的我报说，乡下人不用护肤品，但皮肤仍好。城市的人拼命用护肤品，但皮肤依然快速老化，那是因为城市人的皮肤不断受压力影响。

城市的市场上出现越来越多减压配套，从按摩到SPA到户外活动到看心理医生... 我们赚的钱又流回到了别人的手里，还得不偿失地使自己青春不再。赚的钱还抽税，真是赔了夫人又折兵！可到底为什么我们还拼命赚钱呢？

其实我们都懂，还是加加减减还是有钱剩。赚了大钱，就有好日子过，有面子。只是失去的，都是intangible - 不能用钱来衡量的。你失去了自我，失去了陪家人教育小孩与另一半联络感情的时间，失去了自由，甚至有些人可能因此身心受创。如果能够选择，我真的不想工作，越来越失去自我，连说什么话都被管。诚实是从小的教育，但遇到工作上的某些人，你就是不可以老实。凌晨1点，老板娘简讯我说，要我从这件事好好学习，不准对他人提起。

其实，我认为两人都有错，若不是她说，我会做吗？我只错在不会说话而已。

无论如何，工作上的说话技巧，待人处事，与上司的相处技巧等我还得好好学习才行，不然我在社会上决不能呆久。

昨夜，我又哭了, 因为我想起爸爸。如果我告诉爸爸，爸爸一定会要我不工作了，然后再塞钱给我。爸爸的肩膀好宽好厚好踏实...但，我已经毕业了，不该成为家里的负累，而是带给他们好日子的女儿... 没关系的，我下个周末就可以见到爸爸妈妈了，我好想念他们...家里的日子最好，可以什么话都说，什么事都做，爸爸都让着我，给我欺负。哈！

我嚷着以后都不工作，王先生说，会有这么一天的！我也要做做梦~~~~
我还说，不如我们回去种菜去，日子可以挺逍遥吧？

让我好好享受这个凉凉的星期六早晨吧~　朋友们，我这就出门去！

祸从口出 & LADY BOSS

2010-07-30T21:28:00.004+08:00

Another working week has just ended. I have been working very carefully for the past five days and I seriously thought life has been getting better. At least, I have built up good rapport with my lady boss. Life was great for the 4.5 days but the bad luck god get me into trouble when we were almost leaving, for one sentence from my mouth. No, I get my lady boss, GM and probably the whole company image into trouble. No enlarge effect. My lady boss cried. Tell me, how many of you equip with the capability to make your boss in tears? Seriously, I'm amazed by my competency.

As she said, it can be big or small. Pray hard that it is just a small matter and wont get everyone into trouble. *PRAY TO ALL GODS* I will stop eating all kind of meats and stick to vegetarian for my sins.

Can't I have the fine touch of the art of speaking? Being too honest is indeed the worst thing you should have while you are on job, esp you are facing outsiders. Too straight is wrong for many cases. Lady boss said: The work is not hard, it's the people that hard to handle. I fully understand by now. Working is not about the work, the people skill is the most important skill for your career.

ARGH~!! I just can't be a good employee nor a good speaking person....ARGH!!! Assessment of situation is the matter of one second before you anwser to any question throwns!!! Hope it's not the implication of 祸从口出~~! STRESS!!　For my past 5 days, I spent an average of 2hours in car chit chatting with her each day. I may not know the burden of a manager, but I slowly know her. In fact, my lady boss is a kind, considerate and graceful people. She teaches primary student from 7-8am before coming to office; she never scold her children and students (poly) and she has many good characters that worth learning. But, somehow I just can't get along too well with her, when I do, for the past few days, matter happens and she bears for me.

GOOD LUCK FOR BOTH OF US MAN~ GODSSS BLESS PLS!

Due to responsibility, I have to stay back. The art of speaking is my must-learn skill~~ @.@

My dream - House

2010-07-26T22:30:00.001+08:00

SHOUT LOUDLY - I WANNA OWN A HOUSE.

Ya. The desire to own a house has expanded significantly. I'm saving hard for my dream. I believe another half of me is doing the same thing, but he is more capable by exploring to earn more. The realistic way is to get a HDB, probably 3rooms unit. Equally, I'm seduced by landed house with big space in JB at a lower cost.

Reasons for my strong desire? Probably I'm sick from renting house, by paying housing installment for others, by sharing the house with others and no personal freedom such as decorating the house, purchasing house appliances and etc. I believe I want to stable my life at a place, the one belongs to me.

My birthday is approaching, I bet some of you are aware of it. You better say YES :p My point is, my colleague asked me what do i want for my birthday? Within a second, I replied: Can you get me a house. haha. At this moment, I can't think of anything i want for my birthday...seriously need to brainstorm what I want from my colleagues...or anyone of you interested to know? Then, I will share my checklist for your reference. Heez.

Almost time to bed and I will dream for my dream house...Which level of dream am I in? Hopefully only one level and so I wont be too far from it.

BTW, Inception is an incredibly genious movie production :P

I will be in Changi for sausage making attachment for the whole week till Friday...And here comes my weekends! Congrats to my cutest pilot-to-be (hopefully) HAPPY GRADUATION on coming Saturday!

MELAKA TRIP!

2010-07-18T22:40:00.005+08:00

I just returned from Melaka moments ago. It was an awesome trip with the presence of my lovely colleagues. They are really my motivation to work everyday. Though I have tough life in work but I have them in life. They are really great, funny and lovely. We just cant stop loving each other. Thank GOD for leaving them for me.

Melaka is a great place to have a short escape. You have heritage, food, shopping! Pahlawan is a great place to hunt cheap and nice stuff! RM25 for a dress, anyone??! But they are ppl trying to make good money from the clothes too, one S$10 they can sell at RM70,80, crazy!

We drove to BABA Charlie Nyonya Kuih house which is damn crowded by Singaporeans! I think it becomes famous after the show stared by Michelle. Well, I just had the kuih and I dont think they are so fantastic, norm to me. But there is a Restoran Peranakan located at the street next to jonker street, very very nice asam laksa fish~! and it was cheap!! only RM120 for 6 dishes including fresh whole asam laksa fish, sotong, ayam ponteh, rendang chicken, tau geh and four corner beans!! The cendol is delicious too! So, we paid RM20 each! We also found superb delicious egg tart somewhere in a street! Sorry, I cant remember the street name as we were brought by my colleague's friend and my colleague's husband was the one driving and hunting for those foods :p

Oh, Jonker street is culturally attractive and shopping heaven which is different at day and night time!! Those stalls in front of Red House is selling at slightly higher price for the same item!

Hopefully I can visit one more time before CNY next year. Must be even merrier and more things to see and buy!

That's all for my great weekend. Oh, it's starting of another working week. But i can see my colleagues again! Good bye my weekend, see you my horrible weekday!!

That's all for now! \''\(^_^/''/

老样子

2010-07-13T20:32:00.009+08:00

日子还是老样子。

每天日复一日，上班-吃饭-放工-吃饭-睡觉，再循环那些宅宅的日子。
星期一倒数周末，期待周末出游去；
每天想要怎样开心点，自由点的挣钱；
继续这样过日子，大概会很快老化。呵呵。

周末最开心。
可以不上班，不做肉，只做我喜欢的事情。
包括美容、休息、煮饭、出游去。
上上上个周末2个人花了马币46/新币20看了两部好电影- 叶问前传；knight and day. 还坐couple seat, 好划算，毕竟新币20两个人只能在周末看1部戏。
上上个周末把我生平第一次的演唱会给了在云星剧场开唱的任贤齐，没太大惊喜，普通。
上个周末花了少少钱，买了好东西给我的厨房（当然陆续期待更多的厨房用具--等我有自己的家再买，和给他的领带。
这个周末要和同事们去马六甲走透透！
下个周末我要做泡菜! YUM YUM!
想到周末，突然活了起来。
原来周日，我是死的。

钱没挣多少，却老是想买房子，去旅行
怎么办呢？
这样下去，脑袋会越来越不灵活...
我的想法统统太负面了...

在英国的那段日子最好...
压力是有，日子一样过很快，但放假就是旅行去...
我就是不能说服我自己，那样的日子早已离我远去...
算算，我已回国1年了！！！！！！天啊！

人家说: 若不能避免，就尽情享受.
可我就是无法享受嘛~~~

上次呼吁了，怎么没有有钱人要娶我 >_<

脑袋越来越笨拙。

买了这么多地方的飞机票，现在才知道原来统统都凶多吉少。
老板娘啊，放过我，好啊？

btw, 我渐渐相信什么叫做8字不合。
她可以跟每个人都很合，唯独你...

8月曼谷，90%去不成。
11月香港，假是批了，我死死都去！
11月槟城，求求你，让我拿2天假回家吧！
2月KK, 新年拿2次假，看来凶多吉少！
4月巴哩岛，4天假，有一点点的多，希望到时通融通融。

这些都是老板娘任职前/刚来时订的机票，
知道她的pattern后我就再也不敢订机票了，所有AA,JETSTAR,TIGER的网站都不敢进了....
haizzzzZzzzZZzz
剥夺了我人生最期待的日子，生活怎能快活？！

我才发现，我自己真的很在意annual leave，可以去旅行！！！！

down :(

2010-06-28T21:31:00.003+08:00

恩...最近的事情可以很简单地说，自己却好像复杂化。

简单的说，工作不是很愉快，感觉很受委屈地，在同事面前忍不住泪儿。
真的觉得自己很没用，就是不能受一点委屈和责备，我脸皮很薄，也很好胜。
就是不爽上司，但是我会忍下去，并告诉自己我很爱她，她才会好好地爱我。

今天，她果然跟我道歉，对星期五的事情道歉，我明白她的压力。
所以，我也放开了，希望自己努力点，把自己的事情做好。
希望她会爱我多点，给我点支持，不然我真的很难在政治里生存下去...

话说，每天12个小时都活在心机累累的办公室中，我很辛苦...
我是真的希望自己能够不工作，或是在0政治的地方工作，发白日梦，对吧？

这样的生活，让我好累好累，想出国去玩，却不能拿假，实在痛苦... >_<
到底我可以能够活得心空自由却无需担心收入和花费吗？
却找不到一个对的方法来面对自己的生活．．．
有没有有钱人看上我，不然就来一份零政治，无压力又享受的高薪工作吧~
还有能够让我随时拿假去玩的工作~~！

ＢＴＷ，太岁老爷真得很坏咯　:(

心情down :(

大大声喊：我要快点变有钱人／嫁给有钱人　！！

虎年衰事一箩箩

2010-06-02T21:20:00.003+08:00

心情好差哦...

原来我还是习惯向平面银幕诉苦...

今天，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了。
好伤心，因为这只是我第3次穿它而已。

面子书上，我说：

‘戏剧里，高跟鞋的鞋跟断了，有时候会有白马王子拯救美女的情节出现；
现实里，鞋跟断了，只代表这是今年一箩箩衰事的其中一件罢了，没有大不了！’

确实如此，今天同事们还猛评我离开FR组的唯一创作...
因为大规模的生产出现了很多问题...
我想，确实为难他们了...

虽然我明白，确确实实是我的错，
但眼泪就是很想留下来，
但，我控制了。
还算有成长吧。

今年的衰事真的很多，
拿假老板娘会多多问题，多多意见，甚至擅自决定我8月不必去曼谷了！
老板娘根本不把我的实验室放在眼里，他人的，她可以用3个小时来细细讨论每一个细节，
我的实验室只用了10分钟来决定一切！
虽然我的规模比较小，但也太明显她不重视我吧？
小小的事件还包括大热天，她放我一个人走路回去公司，虽然只是１２分钟的路程．

算了，投诉无用。
还是保持积极的态度，期望明天会更好，期望我的Ｒ＆Ｄ室进行顺利，然后做让老板们骄傲的作品出来...

希望我可以坚持并待上2年！
虽然每天开始抗拒去上班，我相信现在只是过渡期...

正面思考~~！！

还有衰的事，上次我订的飞机票竟然定错日期，无端端花了额外１７２块　:(
还有还有很多呢～～！！

不说了!!
我要看书去~！

IT'S JUNE.

2010-06-01T20:54:00.003+08:00

So, it's June.
Trying my best to keep at least a post a month for my updates.

May is passing very fast indeed. I have been preparing my company dinner and dance since early of May. Had my facial, done my cosmetic,clothes,shoes,accesories shopping, had haircut blah blah blah. Women always take long time to prepare days before a grant and important event such as dinner and dance, wedding dinner and worst - own wedding. Haha. but it all worth the money and time invested when you are beautiful and there it makes us feel more confident and delightful.

Other than that, working life is as usual. BUT, i have tougher days in companies. Nasty colleagues from other dept make me a better EQ person. NOW, my manager is someone harder to please. She is very soft, motherly and caring person, so everyone is praising her. On the other side, she can be very workaholic, giaw (stingy aka kedekut), aunty behaviour and worst stop me (and other colleagues) from taking leave!

She has 3 kids and she tries to go back at 6pm everyday to fetch her youngest child. However, she did come back during weekends to finish her works and send emails at 11pm. She can warm up the cold dish that I commented. She makes us rojak. She is a soft spoken lady which never scold us but also keep nagging and chasing for something. She is just like another mother of us.

On the other side, she is always wearing two masks. Slowly, I realised she wears a mask almost everyday. She also likes to 'poh' ppl as in having sweet talks to whoever have values to her. So, I stop talking so much to her. Cause I dont like ppl being so JIA! Then, when she gets familiar with everyone, she starts being sarcastic (esp to me!) and control many things, e.g. my annual leave.

I bought bangkok air tickets last nov to travel in August due to cheap tickets. But now, the bangkok is simply a mess and hence I almost give up. YOG is heating up the whole singapore and my company is doing something for them that need almost all staff from ground to managerial level. I was called to give details which means I will be on duty, most likely. However, schedules have yet released.

Here, she stops me from taking leave even though the duty roaster is not out and dunno if my holiday crashed. That's fine. I understand.

Then, I know her style of working so I quickly apply my HK trip in coming NOV as soon as I have booked the tickets. HR asked if I need to apply the leave so early, I answered: 'here we have different style of working, sure I have to apply first!'
Predictably, she asked if I REALLY NEED to take leave in NOV (during deepavali)! WTH.
'YES, I have already booked the air tickets'. Come on, only 3.5 days loh.
Then, I dun talk to her anymore. Silent... and soon, I received a notification email that she has approved the leave.

Actually I have booked another trip to go back Penang in the same month, I think I have to give up the trip. Unlikely she will let me go to PG :(

Sienz. I will try hard not to take leave and my plant has not up OR not much issue in the new plant so I have excuse to go back PG during HAJI!

Then, I just knew that she also asked the old chef in my company not to take leave, even though he is planning to take medical leave... She is too workaholic sometimes.

Anyway, I also receive pressure from her cause she is a very gan jiong ppl that making everyone so ganjiong and stress in my dept. Some have to really split into 2-3 in order to finish the task given by the tight timeline.

Well...Working is always not easy in SG. The best is she has to fetch her youngest child earlier and so I usually have no prob to go back at 6pm! God blesssSssSsss

Hope i can stay at least 2 years in this company to earn enough of experience, money and exposure for better career prospect :D

Gambateh~~~!!!

Arh, went back to PG during Vesak long weekend. Refreshen!!

Hmm, 31 Dec is my grandparents 50th wedding anniversary, anything special for them???

June...nothing much I guess. One K session with poly year 1 classmates...

Still...like to stay home after working to replenish my energy and love for life.

Hope June will be better~~!!

When u are 24 - you are lady, not girl.

2010-05-02T15:27:00.001+08:00

不知道从哪里看到这篇日志，感觉说得很有道理，希望每个女生都能幸福的生活着~~

1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。

2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。

3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。

4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。

5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。

6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！

7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？

8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。

9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。

10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。

11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。

12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。

13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。

14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。

15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。

16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。

17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。

18~随时给自己准备一个微笑告诉自己我可以！

不小了要加油了

女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。

2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。

3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。

4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。

5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。

6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。

7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。

8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。

9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。

10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。

11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。

12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成

homesick =(

2010-05-01T21:11:00.006+08:00

Continue with my previous post.

With many depressed reasons, here they provoke my homesickness which never happen for long time. Plus, it's mother's day next weekend which I cannot be home, again, after so many years in Singapore.

I've been asking myself what can I do to brighten up my mood and days. Now, I can finally think of one - Going home. Although my hometown house is not maintained in a good condition that I always get sick or uncomfortable due to my sensitive nose and many other reasons, I still love to go home as I feel so much relax and worry-free. That's like living under my parents' wings that I'm so protected and carefree~

I have not travelled for many months since my last trip in UK which is coming to one year =( As in travel to any places out of Singapore and Penisular Malaysia and new place that I never been to. So sienz... Life sucks!!!

HAiz, so wish to resign and stay at hometown forever without working for others.. Miss my parents so much, feel like crying T_T

but then, since my younger sister studies in KL, my parents feel so much lonely that they start to get a dog and treat it like real son. My dad never get so worry when we get sick (neither when we were toddler nor adults) but he bought damn expensive shampoo to the dog and even almost bring it to 'pet hospital' which cost much more than our 'human hospital'~! I joke that we should get it an insurance plan too......

anyway, at least the dog can keep them accompany and bring them so much fun each day. U can't stop laughing if u ever see how my dad and mum are confusing the dog (to enter the house or not)- one stopping and one luring it with foods and meats inside the house!!

And my elder sister is in new zealand now for her brand new life... all the best to her for the following 9months...

Homesick lah =( When will I have my own home?? We are going to move again, looking for a 4room HDB in west area... around clementi,jurong east, chinese garden. Do recommend!!

Updates after a while

2010-05-01T20:37:00.007+08:00

Guys, long time no see...
Nothing special...busy and routine work and life...

Well, work is stressful and helpless sometimes.
I don't know how to handle the old ppl in company.
I don't have very good food technical background.
I don't know how to adjust the speaking tone, how to judge what to say and not to say.
I don't like meaty stuff but I have to do it.
I don't have good human and work management system in place.

I JUST DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE. As in not working at all. It's not the company problem only, it's my personal problem... I just dunno how to handle all these ppl, matters, politics. I feel so tired, stressed, depressed and helpless.

Can I live in a world where everyone has a kind and helpful heart? I have to make things clear that I work happily in my department but not with other depts and superiors.

I just want to lay on a man who can take care of everything and thereafter I can live happily ever after without much worries...

Let me dream...no one knows me, even myself is unsure what I want.

It's really not a good year for me.
I hardly could meet a 'gui ren' in workplace...
My plans always do not carry out as it is planned, be it in life or work...
So negative and depressed......

haizzzz

Today is labour day. To me, just another weekend... with mild 'stomach' pain which most girls have to suffer each month >< so cham... HAiZzzz!!

人，总在改变...

2010-04-09T20:17:00.005+08:00

每回遇到友谊问题，我总是乱了阵脚。

hmmmm...有时候，不断地挑起事端，真的会fed up!
朋友不是让人感觉舒服的吗？
为何我开始感觉有压力？
我一定要跟着你们的方式走吗？

不过，也是时候自我反省。

我确实逐渐偏向宅女内向型，都不主动约朋友，出门去~
有些朋友接受，也习惯这种相处方式，
我却也开始问自己：是种病态吗？

Anyway, 他们可不接受这些excuses。

工作累了，就真的什么都不想理了，
王先生总是要我往外跑，见见朋友，我总是喊累，懒惰，所以日子过得平淡无奇。
我想，我真的累了。
在外趴趴走了好久，就想赖在家，赖着他，想内向，想自闭。

想想，睡在棺材其实挺不错，永远就呆在同一个地点，时间到了有人给你钱，给你屋子，给你跑车，还可以有IPod, IPhone. 不错嘛~~

生病记

2010-03-20T21:30:00.002+08:00

星期六雨天

从星期四晚上开始，整个人昏昏沉沉的，拖着快病死的身躯学yoga去，就是不要浪费一个小时5块钱的学费。
晚上发起烧来了。

虽然星期五因为有个跟总经理、与对方签合约的公司等等大牌人物- 非常极度重要的会议...
我还是决定拿病假，因为真的感觉很累很疲累很软弱...

题外话，我前阵子天天梦到总经理...
有人说，我犯太岁又没有去拜拜的结果...
我管他的，我就是不信邪~~~

我会尽力的~
是我被看得起也~
以我看来，是好事一庄，ok?

但还是阿米驼佛，我没有惹毛他...
我可是有认真工作，好不好嘛，总经理...
我会快点show you performance!!

话说，那是近日的工作压力...
是不是这样而导致抵抗力下滑，
被同事的细菌感染，一个接一个地倒下.....

病了2天，足足两天后，我终于起身刷牙洗脸冲凉.
这两天内，我差不多断断续续睡超过24个小时吧...
剩余的时间就是看戏，看戏，上上fb...

觉得自己很恐怖，48个小时后才冲凉，不过没有出去的我，没有臭臭哦！

那天跟一个朋友聊起，突然在想，怎么我在英国没有那么频密的生病？
外国的天气果然比较好，人也比较精神，少生病。
至少在英国，我的鼻子绝对听我的话。
爸爸说得对，生在四季国家的人身子都特别硬朗，因为总得适应不同的气候吧～

明天要去找舅舅阿姨，身子好起来，不要传染病菌给小孩子们噢～

喉咙痛的药都吃完了，怎么喉咙还是坏坏的？

anyway, 何先生，不要再给我压力，我会努力做好的！
我的抗压能力真的很差哦~

阿米驼佛～～～～

2010-03-15T21:54:00.001+08:00

不知道想干嘛,所以赖在这里一下下.

度过小小的假期,明天又开工了.

The life stories

2010-03-05T22:18:00.005+08:00

It has been awhile since my last update.

CNY has totally over, my first and last angpaus are in SGD.
First, given by Chef Eric, together with Dark Chocolate,
He said that was for V DAY. So SWEET of him!
I received my last ang pau from my cousin, on Wed, 3.3.10.

What happen recently are more emotional and I can see more opportunities are coming after me. Good or bad? I don't know. I gotta do it.

I totally have no time to blog. Life sucks huh?
But I always spend sometime on fb to ensure im not outdated from friends' news and it just needs few clicking and typing! I feel I'm probably typing too much till I'm reluctant to move my fingers on the keyboard after work!!

One thing for sure is... my working place is gonna be further and further from my home!! Just accept :( I gotta miss my fun, caring and lovely colleagues!! I know they gonna miss me too.... argh. feel so down~

Suddenly feel like talking something about studying overseas.

How does 11 months mean to you?
It's long for a long term relationship.
It's short for a degree course.
It's neither long nor short to something,like living experience.

Once you have been there, you are talking the experience for lifetime,
just like those NSmen have never stopped talking about their torturing but memorable NS stories regardless of the ages.
This happens the same to me.

I realised I never stop mentioning UK and Europe stories.
It becomes part of my daily conversation.
UK business and their eating behaviours, I share a thought.
GM's UK study and travel experiences, I join the interesting topic.
Freaking hot weather, I say I miss UK's weather.
Other colleagues, superiors, suppliers and clients asking about education background, I just repeat the stories.
About world economy and currency, I ask them to go UK now.
Chef cooking new western dishes, I know English like them.
Europe travel stories, I have a lot to share!
The movie scene, the recognisable heritage, I been there!

Practically, It comes out naturally.

I know, 11months were hard days for me but it's definitely memorable.

When can I return to UK?
OR
When can I have another unforgettable yet exciting life experience?

Thought of going to see other parts of the world...
A crazy way again ...
Expecially in this EXTREMELY HEATY country.

Looking at the raise of temperature,
rate of earthquake and tsunami,
you know 2012 is not far!

AND, my curls are a lot more straighten.
Kinda SAD~~

我爱我家

2010-02-07T18:13:00.002+08:00

新年到了，春意浓。
无可否认，春节气息一年比一年少，但那还是家人团聚的好日子。
至少，我家要大家整整齐齐，同桌吃饭的好日子，一年就只有这么一次。

说说老爸老妈。
年龄渐大，有些事看破了。
家里只剩弟弟和新的家庭成员- Pui Pui aka 肥肥黑狗的陪伴。
爸爸总是忽略每况愈下的身体状况；妈妈却还算对自己的高血压和高胆固醇有所顾忌。

我家的大姐，每次看着她的部落格更新，就不想再回复了。
那些都带着负面的一撇一划，让我看了很郁闷...
什么时候她才能释怀，做个真正快乐的人呢？
真的需要5年吗?
希望你很快就会离开那些阴霾，做个快乐积极面对人生的人，
你值得过这样的生活，而不是活在灰色的城市里，继续自我摧残...
你要给自己一个重新生活的机会！
而不要在活在那些事情的阴影之下，好吗？

你要，走出来。

弟弟呢，我跟妈说，他真的生性了。
一切一切的无动于衷，我都看在眼里。
就是成熟长大了，每一步，他都有计划。
我看好我弟，他是成熟的，他会有一番作为，让长辈都大吃一惊。
我知道有一天，我会以他为荣...

说真的，我弟很帅的hor~~ heezz

妹妹阿，大学生啊。
过着典型的色彩缤纷大学生涯。
有时候，却还是迷了路...
但，这是个过程，她总会走过来....

偶尔的跌倒，是为了累计更丰富的人生经验，我还是鼓励让她自己去学走，学跑~
我们的小妹，长大了啦~

我爱我家～～
我快要看到你们咯～～～

这次我一定要拍全家福~

The routine.

2010-02-05T20:48:00.011+08:00

Working is tiring
but I do enjoy the working hours
for half of the work, and all the colleagues.

I'm blessed to have these kind, fun and understandable pretty colleagues.
Though good days are expired in 31 March, we will try to enjoy, before the new manager coming in.

It's really nothing much you can do after a long day utilising the full tank of energy
But, one thing would definitely refill the energy tank easily - cooking.
I have a new toy called thermal pot that I use to cook and keep my soup/dessert warm till I'm back from work.
That's cool,save and healthy, isn't it?

I admit, I like cooking, during office hours or home hours :D
So, my uncle ong ong observes that nowadays, young girls, esp those pretty ones, like to practice culinary!! Which I think it's true :x cause I'm also one of them :)
My genuine pig comments that I do improve my cooking skill, oK!!hohoo

Well well well...
I do enjoy the moments.

NOW, Let's hope for a prosperous tiger year ahead for all of us!!
Most importantly, money growssss!!!
So we can do what we want, where to go!!

Tiger year must be a good year, I truly believe!!

Gong xi ya gong xi, fa ya fa da cai~

XIN NIAN LAI LOH!!
XIN NIAN LAI LOH~~~~

7days count down to see my new family member aka pui pui black dog, and my dearest Ngssssss

Argh... We still can't celebrate Valentine day together, It is the 3rd time we miss :(((

Oh, Fish Leong is finally married romantically! I love the sun, and the beach!
Seriously I wish my wedding is conducted at such a way!!
I will keep dreaming, and hope to become real??
Unless we tiok toto or 4D lah!! haha
and invits all of you :x
BTW, I look forward to CM's bf wedding proposal~!
It must be damn romantic!!

Keep the believe: Love is proved by hurdles!!

Cute curls?? haha
My adorable mei mei couldn't recall me when she first saw my new hairstyle. She was totally staying away from me, while her brother tried to recall everything about me!
I think she has totally confused how can her nini jiejie looks completely different until the moment I left!

Update..

2010-01-24T22:08:00.004+08:00

Basically, life goes on beautifully.

Appreciate what I have and working hard for what I want.

Life is good with my most caring boyfriend, sophisticated work as well as fun and pretty colleagues. Undoubtably, we are a department saturated with pretty and young girls. haha.

Recently been back to Sing k addiction after two and a half years self-prohibition. the frequency and expenses are still within my control but i found myself is outdated with the songs!! Yesterday was my first time to do full body massage. It is painful, I dont really enjoy...

RIP for Johor sultan but it ruined many ppl's weekend plan, esp those wanted a getaway to JB. Colleagues and my plans were completely destroyed. Headed back to SG for spontaneous event. It became a long day and yet fun day :D

Chinese New Year is just around the corner, and i have no mood to go shopping cause I've been addicted to online shopping!!! HAHahhaaa...

Nothing much to update besides I have significantly improved my cooking skill but unstable performance. haha... Just hope for the best in coming Tiger YEAR!!! IT's my Most AGGRESSIVE year :DDDD

Hope tiger brings the luck to all ppl :DD

More updates can be found in my fb status/photos i guesss :DD

Oh, i have completely changed my outlook to welcome my TIGER year ... cuter but not prettier- according to my uncle ong ong, sad. It costed me S$136 to be more cute...

natural processes

2010-01-19T22:56:00.003+08:00

The temperature increases few degrees each year, that signifies global warming.
The cell tissues lose its complexity each year, that signifies the aging process.
And human does change.
All are natural processes.

自制木瓜面膜

2010-01-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

说好要变美女，但要省钱...所以先把这个转载在这里...有空才弄，也与大家分享 :D

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疲劳，睡眠不足，情绪低落……女人的肌肤会变得又黄又暗，没有丝毫光泽，称之为“暗沉”。下面学几招改变自己的暗沉肌肤，给肌肤补充营养。

　　拯救肌肤暗沉

　　女人们常常将肌肤暗沉与肌肤偏黑的概念溷淆，盲目地使用增白产品，效果当然不会很理想。改变肌肤暗沉的秘诀是什么？促进皮肤表层角质代谢，及时补充水分，让肌肤重新变得白里透红。

　　选择木瓜+酸奶的理由

　　改变和调整皮肤暗沉现象有不少方法，大家可以自己动手，尝试一下“木瓜+酸奶面膜”。

　　酸奶：酸奶中的乳酸，有不错的保湿功效，还有去角质作用，可让肌肤快速恢复光泽、嫩滑。

　　木瓜：青木瓜的木瓜酶是成熟木瓜的2倍左右，因此，选择青木瓜的效果是最佳的。

　　自制“木瓜+酸奶”面膜

　　材料：木瓜 1/4个(约60g)、酸奶 5茶匙(约5g)、果汁机、茶匙、面膜纸、小碗

　　功效：从理论上来讲，“木瓜+酸奶”面膜对角质层较厚的油性肌肤有一定的效果，同时也具有一定的刺激性，因此敏感肌肤或干性肌肤一定要慎用。健康肌肤一个礼拜敷一次也就可以了。

　　步骤：

　　敷完以后，稍微有一点涩涩的感觉，但会觉得皮肤很清凉、紧致，泛油光及肤色灰暗的现象也会有所改善。

　　Step1 最好选青木瓜，青木瓜的表皮为青色，瓤为乳白色，有少许珍珠状白色籽。
　　Step2 将木瓜对剖成两半，用匙挖掉木瓜籽。
　　Step3 将木瓜去皮，每次取1/4，切成2cm见方的小块，剩余的用保鲜袋装好，放入冰箱冷藏室。
　　Step4 放入果汁机打碎。操作前可根据需要放入适量清水。
　　Step5 将搅拌成泥状的木瓜倒入面膜碗。
　　Step6 加入5茶匙的酸奶(最好用原味酸奶)，一起搅拌均匀。
　　Step7 洁面后，用面膜纸覆盖在上面。10分钟后洗去。拍上爽肤水即可。

　　TIPS：能够使肌肤红润的食品

　　红黄色蔬菜：西红柿等红色蔬菜可以使神经系统兴奋，胡萝卜、花菜等黄色蔬菜则含有丰富维他命E，能促进肌肤光滑，改善晦暗的肤色。

　　蜂蜜：含有多种人体所需的氨基酸和维他命，活血并增加肌肤光泽。

　　葡萄：可以帮助肝、肠、胃清除体内垃圾，还能增加造血机能。

　　木瓜、西柚、猕猴桃：含丰富抗氧化剂，帮助排出体内过多的游离基，同时有助扩张血管，加快血液循环，红润肤色。

2009, 2010

2009-12-31T15:13:00.012+08:00

开始着笔写2009年最后几行字

回顾一年是每年尾例行的动作

也该拟下来年的目标和行动表

殊不知，去年的今天我没有拟下2009的目标...

所以，无从一一回顾目标是否落实了。

仲然如此，心中有数，2009是圆梦精彩的一年。

2009的第一次包括
－＞坐了１６次的飞机。
－＞沉醉在白茫茫的冰天雪地。
－＞一个人去背包旅行。
－＞３次在冷冷又小小的机场过夜经验．．．
等等

2009年的第1天，相公和我正在哈利波特作者的故乡，睡在冰箱里的那几页我们没齿难忘。被称为两位公主流浪记的旅程，实在难忘，那也是第一次让我懂得珍惜热带国家的生活。

Jan 2009

与相公道别，自个儿飞到白色的瑞典。从位于南部的首都斯德哥尔摩到北极圈的Abisko，在花了24个小时到南部瑞典的第二大城市，是一个人完成的。终于实现一个人旅行的快感，我实在享受。

Jan 2009

1月24-2月2日，我们4个女生到了西班牙-一个充满视觉色彩的国家。马德里不思议，只不过是个名牌的城市还有残忍的斗牛基地；巴塞隆纳才是每个人毕生得去一趟的国家，你一定要亲眼目睹Gaudi - 高迪的伟大作品，这包括出现在流行花园，还需几十年才完成的瞩目教堂；可爱精彩的Park Guell 等等...

Jan 2009

3月乖乖地上课... 也是09 年的最后一场雪。

4月冲到位于荷兰，属世界上最大的郁金香花园...那片壮观的花海是一辈子都不可能忘记的一幕...荷兰是个精彩的夜城市，也相信是‘红灯区’的名字由来..小孩堤防的19个风车也很漂亮！最后也踏上了比利时的土地。Made in Belgium就是巧克力最强的宣传伎俩...大象牌的，真的不错！！

Apr 2009

５月是交论文和努力应付考试的日子．．．最后的学业痛苦．．．

６月尾随着潮流搭上欧洲夏天之旅的最早列车．儿时的迪士尼乐园梦想达成了，看到巴黎的浪漫，也同时看到治安和友善那丑陋的画面。那个夜里，Florence的桥上，有演奏师画上比巴黎还要浪漫的音符，我多么期待我正靠在他身旁．．．我，还在细细回味那浪漫的余味．．．跨过洋人最爱的夏天天堂－Ｎｉｃｅ，然后抵达意大利。走过了斜塔，还有最具历史论议的罗马，阴天的威尼斯．．．最后，回到了伦敦，才知道伦敦比走过的欧洲城市都还要安全，干净，更适合省钱女性旅人游走的地方．．．

７月也一睹苏格兰的美。一个女生和两个从未见面的中国男生，架着车子，带着帐篷，看到最美最自然的苏格兰。我还想，回去，爬五姐妹山。

July 2009

７月也是一年努力最好的见证－我的大学毕业典礼。没有家人朋友的参与，我只有最亲爱的相公和那向日葵陪着我。

７月２５日，我回到新加坡见到他，结束了１１个月的远距离恋爱。那刻，梦醒了。

８月，他终于见到我的父母了。这也是证明我活了２３年的月份。

９月＆１０月，是人生的低潮期。失业，待业之间徘徊．．．

１１月开始了人生崭新的一页。找到了一份好工作。我说过，只要老板不苛求，薪水达某个程度，５天制，至少１４天年假。全部都有，我天天还有免费午餐呢！虽然不是餐餐好吃。

12月，就是回顾一年的月份，是尽情享受佳节的月份！

挥别2009，迎向2010 虎虎生威之年！

2010

1. 我要变美女，并有良好的体重管理。

2. 我要努力存钱挣钱为下个梦想奋斗。

3. 我要做个出色的厨师。

4. 我要做个精明的女人,包括财务消费处理等等...hohoho...

5. 我要买Oven,学烤面包。

6. 我要学包饺子。

好像，目标不多但都是很大并长远的目标...hahaha...

努力吧！

让我们一起垫高双脚，打开双手怀抱2010 虎年！

2009-12-23T09:13:00.001+08:00

该属欢欣愉快的圣诞庆日，
何以让人如此低沉？

有些遗憾是永久性的

2009-12-17T13:32:00.008+08:00

有些遗憾是一辈子的。

错过了那段日子，去到同样的地方还是永远找不回昔日的感觉。

真的羡慕可以一同走欧洲的情侣。

我的呢？
是永远存在脑子档案的虚拟画面而已。

虽然那段日子不好过，可我确实好想念好想念...
尤其是近日来面子书不断浮出友人英国留学，情侣游遍欧洲，还是男友赴西约会的照片...

我还能回到欧洲吗？
欧洲目前最让我想去的，就是北欧！
曾经也是胎死腹中的地点！

哦，还有 Wales.

The end is here.

2009-12-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

Wuuoooooo... excited? festive mood? high?

i'm kinda feeling so-so.

my colleagues are getting 13th month bonus in 5days but not my business =(

fulfilling my dream in the first part of the year, and suffering for another half part =[

saving harder for next dream =D

i have actually many things to share, but it's really tired after working. Entirely different to my first job. The day passes very fast each day, very fruitful, busy and challenging. I hope to work longer in this company =D

Hope everyone has a very good Christmas :D

Haji的长假

2009-11-29T16:19:00.004+08:00

希望那种加班到午夜的日子已经离我远去了...
最好是PASS AUDIT,这样我们的辛苦也值得，而且还有老板请大餐，我的直属经理还在口头上答应给我们部门的同事们轮流放一天假，因为我们加班得太辛苦了... （不算在年假里哦！)

说真的，工作了一个月，觉得同事都很不错，上司也很好。
我们女生回家，都会互相sms报平安；煮快熟面会一起吃，生日一起庆祝。老板没有加班，但也会买东西给我们吃。

希望会一直好好的，薪水一直步步高升~哈哈~

3天的长假其实无所事事。第一天都在家里洗刷长达一个星期多的衣物和床单，都是加班惹的祸，使我的衣服堆积如山还不够衣服穿上班呢！我也在那天完成了很久以来的小心愿- 自制泡菜！7天后才能品尝哦，希望成功啦！我做的是大马的版本，辣椒粉没用韩国的，希望还是不错的！做泡菜真的真的需要一整天，功夫多得很！

第2天到小舅家玩耍去！因为二舅也来新加坡感受圣诞气氛! 今年的乌节路因为ION的开幕而显得额外闪烁繁华绚丽~ 我也很喜欢呢~！可惜相机没电了，没拍到 =(

vivo也不错，但要绝对感受新加坡的圣诞气氛，还非得到乌节路呢！

［可爱的表弟妹们］

第3天，还是待在家里... 这几天就好象回到失业那段日子，闲闲的，却没有金钱压力，棒！！
话说，爸爸妈妈想念我，捎来信息。原来我加班的这两个礼拜都没有打电话回家。最引我发笑的是－爸爸说，２５年来，妈妈第一次传简讯给爸爸说：亲爱的，帮我打包ｔｏｍｙａｍ面。　爸爸看到简讯后马上飞速地打包好，亲自送到妈妈的面前．．．后来才知道，是我家的员工打的信息，自作聪明地加了那三个字。　妈妈说爸爸要扣他薪水，我笑说我要加他薪水！哈哈哈！　我可爱的父母，让我感到好开心！

休息够了，明天又是新的一周咯！向2009年最后一个月say hello, 不久后就要向2009 say good bye!!

我的２００９，总算是美丽落幕吧！

All about OT

2009-11-25T18:32:00.003+08:00

The newest record - 11.45pm.

that's the time I stepped out of office, last night.

after OT-ing for many days, I lost count of how many extra hours I have been putting on. Today is the big thing - BRC (British Retail Consodium) Audit that last for 2 days. Today is production and other departments' show time and tomorrow is ours. I have completed what they asked me to do and still OT at this time, 6.35pm, to stand by.

How eagerly I anticipate the long weekend though I have not planned as I dun really have time to think about it. Probably it would just another weekend in Msia or rotting at home, which I love to. It would feel so good for not bringing your brain for the days.

Whatever it is, Thursday 6pm pls come earlier than I expected, PLEASE!!

After Thursday 6pm, it means BRC audit is over (the best is to pass the audit, else more works to be done!!), and long weekend is coming!! I can bring my brain to some center for therapeutic purpose.

Shopping day!

2009-11-21T22:27:00.002+08:00

I promised to fork out $100 for my clothing fee from my first pay and I utilised them efficient and effectively!

Today, we went for 2012 (finally it's my treat), with a housemate, then I spent $97 for my clothes at Jurong Point. Kinda exciting to see sales everywhere which comes in the right time!

Guess what, $97 get me 2 one-piece-dress, 1 top, 1 formal pant and 1 pair of wa wa xie (cutie shoes which I can wear for work too!), 3 of them are half priced!

One thing that I learnt - I must earn my money to indulge myself like this!! Simply I cant and wont spend guy's money on this!! Feeling so great that I can finally shop like this, cause I earn and I spend!! It's totally feeling different from last 3 months that I kept myself from shops, and barely buying extra for foods, clothes and etc.

Friday!!

2009-11-20T11:20:00.006+08:00

It's Friday!

Finally I can makan snake for a while, after OT for consecutive nights!

Today is a good day.

I was reluctant to get out of my bed cause it was chilling and I was very tired due to OT. While I walked towards office, I looked up and it was a clear blue sky assimilating what I used to see in Europe. My mind was filling with scenes in spring and summer this year.

Then, my room light is on. Strange. Oh, I have dou jiang you tiao on my table. So sweet and warm in the chilling morning! Only chef Eric was early and he admitted. Sadly, he is not only buying for me, but also other girls in our department lah. hahaaa....

we had some desserts accompanying by last wednesday lunch...

This was bought by my ong ong... one as my breakfast and another was just right for my dinner in office.

Deng deng deng deng!! I think it was kinda christmas menu and chef Feng brought the extra to us since he was preparing sensory evaluation for top management! Lamb and turkey...whoooo

That's all for now. It's lunch time. heez

=======continue after lunch==============

Another good news is...finally I get my very first pay as degree holder!!

Im going to buy working clothes, buy kitchen accessories, treat my ong ong a movie (its gonna be 2012!) and a good meal!! Then, debts to be paid off... contribute to my sister's education, jiayong etc! hope i can start my saving plan this month!!

Oh, 2011- good day!!

生病了

2009-11-16T19:09:00.005+08:00

因爲星期五7點半，在那個冷冷的夜裏才離開公司...
導致我過了一個發燒感冒喉嚨痛的周末...
接下來，星期一勉強去上班, 結果后半天還是躺在床上...

希望明天可以完全康復，上班才兩個星期就拿病假，有點不像話...
雖然是上司叫我拿假，還有同事載我到診所，說真的，他們蠻不錯的。

第一天，我生病
第二天，我生病，他生病
第三天，我還在生病....他康復了...

希望，第四天我會康復啦~~

還有好多工作等我呢~

Mee hun kuay and cel element face mask.

2009-11-08T20:57:00.004+08:00

Since h2 is posting their breakfast, and she said ours could be more lovely...
therefore, I have decided to post this - my favourite mee hun kuay on a lovely Sunday.
Again, it's made by him, after 3 months.

Sadly, now two of my important people are having high blood pressure,
we have to execute simple and plain (possibly tasteless due to low salt) foods,
eat more wholemeal foods like wholemeal bread/brown rice and increase consumption of fresh fruits and vegetable.

I'm glad that my mother's recent medical follow up results show that her blood pressure is controlled and the eyes do not need to operate/injection though the eyesight is affected. Hope the condition would be greatly improved with the careful diet and regular medicine, even after a year and subsequent medical appointment.

Health and Wealth - synergy power in the world.

As for woman, beauty is also crucial. I tried the mask my sister gave me (which was given by her press respondent months ago), and it turns out to be absolutely fabulous. I just look greatly refreshed, moisturized and whitened with greater complexion which makes my scars less obvious. But I dunno where can I get this, any idea?

Cel Element - Green Tea face mask.

With many photos for the past 2 weeks

2009-11-07T12:50:00.010+08:00

My life starts making an upturn.
Hence, I have more photos to share XD

Story starts from the most recent...

This is the damn handsome and humurous award-winning chef Eric.
Friday was his birthday, age is disclosure (near 40).
He just doesnt look natural in any photo he has taken.
Trust me, he looks 100x more handsome than this pic (with 2 deep dimples).
BTW, his wife was Stewardess and now is the wedding planner-典型的帅哥美女配。

I mentioned before that we have free lunch everyday, let me show you what I have been eating so far. I just look forward to lunch everyday.

Friday

Thursday

Wednesday- every wed is noodle day, which is the worst one among all.

Tuesday - Good one.

Monday - absense as it was my first day of work, paiseh to take photo XD It was hainanese chicken rice, the best of the week.

We have some fun during the boring hours...This is drawn by the NYP internship student.

My mug (my 21st birthday gift from Janice) which has been following me from my first company, to temp job and finally she is here with me, again.

This fails. We have improved this version... keep it secret that this may be presented and seek approval XD

The cleaning aunty made this pumpkin cake for all of us.

Read the middle paragraph.
I really believe this one. heez
cause I look prettier when we first started XD

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29/10 Thursday
The day I signed the employment contract, we went to seoul garden @ bugis for celebration.

It was 1-for-1 buffet with the birthday voucher.

So, we had it at about $25 if im not wrong.

assorted meats with diversified flavours and ice cream satisfied my stomach.

but, the kimchi isnt nice, quite dissappointed.

Love it

2009-11-04T21:41:00.008+08:00

I definitely love the job.

Full of challenges.
Fun colleagues.
Cooking and amending recipe.
Clients and suppliers.
Hot fill and retort plants.
Free lunch.
Free sample (biscuits today)sometimes.
$0.90/bus or train ride.
Reach in 40min.
Flexible working time and attire.

Exciting. Busy. Flexible.

The only thing is the pay.

The best is 5day.
The worst is tired after working everyday, and sample sensory evalution everyday (here it ruins my slimming plan)

ISO22000&BRC manual reading and updating week @.@
Audit coming end of the month...
Tml meeting my very first client and supplier.
And she goes to Army camp site for surveying.

BTW, its not our fault to provide not-so-good-taste foods for our beloved NS men.
(but it's definitely nutritious enough and fulfil the minimum calories requirement and carbo/fat/protein/fibre ratio)
Blame the tight budget given =p
It's damn stressful to work with them, plenty of requirements to fulfil.

It's the day.

2009-11-01T19:18:00.005+08:00

It's the day.

Tonight I shall not suffer insomnia though I worry I'm too excited that I cant turn into bed.

Out of blue, I'm craving for roti taiwan in Penang. OMG.
I want Penang breakfast like roti taiwan or the hainan roti and kopi from Lebuh Campbell.

roti taiwan

Oh shit... I start feeling excited and anxious. Hate filling those declaration papers, declare for your financial, family business, insurance, security, and email/internet usage etc. That's working in Big (but still local) company.

It's the day. Same to Laoda too. It's an important day for tiger-leo ppl. heez

Aza-aza fighting!

Today's sunset is lovely =)

看到曙光了

2009-10-28T16:23:00.008+08:00

终于，盼到了．

隐隐约约看到曙光的那种激动和兴奋加上感激的感觉是　奇妙的。

坚持后得来不易的这一切，我会珍惜。

想不到，这一刻，我竟然词穷。

老土的话还是要说，我不得不感谢在身边支持我的王老板。心情低落沮丧都是他中招也。
还有爸爸妈妈一直让我慢慢来，昨夜还说不要紧，不喜欢不用接受。
当然还有好多朋友支持我，珊姐竟然说要把我搬上论坛；当然还有给我加油的朋友们。

幸好，我坚持。

我打败了那些沮丧低落消沉的日子，我要重新迎接充满希望的人生。

我会努力，谢谢给与的机会，我相信一切会很好。

一切一切开始明朗化，我也找到新的人生梦想了！给我１２年！

What's your dream?
一个面试官的问题竟然让我深思，并找到目标！

What is an interview?

2009-10-26T16:07:00.008+08:00

interview is about how good your lying skill is.

Debate this statement. I paused few seconds while my friend told me this, and then I agreed. But, you gotta make your lie flawless at that moment. Perhaps, you can say that you know how to lie depending on your opponent, or just exaggerate on what you are competent of. The better your talking skill, the better you are in the interview session.

And so, she got a good designer job with a damn good pay, at least, it means a good pay to me. She said, impressive resume with good layout and fabulous and hard-sell-yourself interview are equally important, just that they happen at different stages.

I rated average on my performance during last friday's interview with the potential employer. I should have exaggerated more, hard sell myself instead of just telling the truth and giving the information. Impressed them, sell me and negotiate the salary!

Tomorrow I'm going for an interview with agent, not sure how to deal with her, but I'm gonna find out. Advise me if you have any ideas.

Interview is a powerful skill. I'm working hard on this skill, what to answer correctly for possible question. understand what your potential employer wants to know.

U know u need this skill to guarantee a job in the competitive employment world, the next step after drafting an impressive resume and cover letter. You are both the product and the salesman. Sale yourself.

I'm always cant make the lie perfect. I should have exaggerated my work performance and answer the perfect answer accordingly.

As for my life... It's depressed most of the time, together with PMS and damn hot weather making hot temper, someone kena badly. Too bad, doing the wrong thing at the wrong time. Fails totally.

Finally it's here, after making me suffer for more than a week. Woman is so pity!! We have to endure the pain~!!! Better dont be woman next time!!

Sorry guys I couldnt make it eventually. next time!!

An interview is coming!

2009-10-21T17:10:00.007+08:00

I had the best ever sleeping quality in Kedah, I must recommend Zen Hotel in Alor Setar. I'm not sure what else hotels are available there, but Zen Hotel is definitely not to miss. I dont remember I woke up for once since I slept. This never happen since I'm back from UK.

Thanks Crab Xiang Gong, Love the choice!!

But sleeping problem is bothering me as usual after that. Tension is the best word to describe. I feel tense and pressure throughout my body esp the time I turn on to the bed. My mind is filled with many many things ranging from job, life, money, cooking and future. Quite funny that I would always think what to cook next day. I admit, I love cooking XD

Nevertheless, I have a chance to attend an interview on Friday! I think I will be happy enough to get in this food company, the biggest local listed food company in Singapore. UK business contributes to 50% of the company's turnover. Not sure what they are interested about me. I may have only little chance but I will get myself prepared for it!! This may prove that changing my resume and sending more than one time resume to the same position work! XD

It's kinda touch as I finally grant a chance to interview since my last interview last month. Quite pathetic. I know.

Whatever, I'm also preparing an audition for another party...If this works, I may have the chance to earn some side income once in a blue moon. haha.

I keep telling myself, good days are coming as long as I hold on.

*PRAY!*

Back from Penang, again.

2009-10-20T13:59:00.011+08:00

What a great months since Im back. It's my 3rd visit to homeland since I'm back from UK.

We had a relax short holiday to Penang and Alor Setar.

Though almost all friends and family asked what does it to do with you about your friend's parents' 30th wedding anniversary. We still went, though only 2 of us. (boh bian, tickets were bought)

The funnist thing was that I busy looking at the map in Penang Streets. Planned to take RapidPenang for the journey but ended up driving my sister's car around town and a free ride by a local tour guide, except we took bus from Airport to Komtar. RapidPenang services need to improve and learn from SG's public transport. Give them some time. Afterall, none of Chinese Penangites would ever take the public transport unless all of their cars in the family/friends are broken.

Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion, tours at 11pm and 3pm only.
Chinese tour needs to request one day in advance.
No public visitors allowed at other time.
RM12, worth the price to see how smart CFT was...

VIP room in Pinang Peranakan Mansion. RM10, tour at any time. Both English and Chinese tours are available all day according to the personnel.

The highly recommended Paddy Museum in Alor Setar, Kedah. RM3/entry and RM2/camera. The 360 degree rotating poster illustrating the paddy farming over a year is surprisingly terrific!

The most interesting part is the visit to Cheong Fatt Tze Mansion and Pinang Peranakan Mansion. The tour in blue CFT Mansion is more organised than PP Mansion but PP Mansion is better for taking photos. Interior building of CFT is not allowed for photo taking due to large money invested to the maintenance of the house. Paid RM1000 and u get to take photos. P Mansion is part of the important shooting place for the famous Little Nyonya!!!

nasi kampung in AS, a sambal fried rice that I'm gonna try cooking it next few days XD

roti taiwan, soft bread with butter, peanut butter and peanut. Perfectly contented.

roti taiwan
three layers tea

Where Lin Guan Yin likes to have breakfast
the coffee bread toast!
the awesome kopi
Even better than fu rong sao bao

No where else can present the best foods than Penang, especially those hawker foods. DELICIOUS!! Yummy!! 'drooling again. The day we arrived SG, he first uttered: we are back to a land lack of nice foods.

I mean as compared to Penang which has plenty of cheap and nice foods... Here is undoubtedly a loser.

Before leaving to SG, dad gave me notes of RM50 which I first rejected. I feel so useless for keep taking parents' money even I have graduated with a degree for 3 months!! What a shame!!!

I seriously dont know what goes wrong and where is my luck for getting a good job. It's simply unbelieveable and unbearable.

I'm patiently waiting the day I can treat my parents a good meal, and bring them to travel. I'm waiting the day!!!

I damn hate those san gu liu po discussing me. It seems like I'm really choosy and not willing to work even I have graduated for months. I hate it and ironically I heard this from my grandma who get the news from her sister, who I never seen before, but she is residing in Singapore. Dont ever let me know who is she even I met her one day. Geramnya #$$%$^%$&$* I want to be unemployed meh...kanasai........

What's wrong to me these few months??

It went unanswered.

Lastly, dedicated this photo to shark H2...finally he can bully u..muahaha

Sick of it.

2009-10-08T13:12:00.001+08:00

im really sick of being asking
"have you started working" or
"where are you working now" or
" why you havent found a job"

SICK of IT!!

But ... that's beyond my control =(

真愛的戀情

2009-10-06T13:23:00.000+08:00

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有位心理學家曾寫道，一個成熟稱得上真愛的戀情

必須經過四個階段，那就是：

共存(Codependent)

反依賴(Counterdependent)

獨立(Independent)

共生(Interdependent)

階段之間轉換所需的時間不一定，因人而易。

第一個階段：共存。

這是熱戀時期，情人不論何時何地總希望能膩在一起。

第二個階段：反依賴。

等到情感穩定後，至少會有一方想要有多一點自己的時間作自己想做的事，這時
另一方就會感到被冷落。

第三個階段：獨立。

這是第二個階段的延續，要求更多獨立自主的時間。

第四個階段：共生。

這時新的相處之道已經成形，你（妳）的他（她）已經成為你(妳)最親的人。

你們在一起相互扶持、一起開創屬於你們自己的人生。

你們在一起不會互相牽制，而會互相成長。

但是，大部分的人都通不過第二或第三階段，而選擇分手一途，這是非常可惜
的。

很多事只要好好溝通都會沒事的，不要耍個性，不要想太多要互相信任，這樣第
二、三階段的時間就會縮短。

和所愛的人相遇相戀是非常不容易的，不要輕言放棄。

兩人相聚是因為有緣，相知是因為有心，真的得好好珍惜這福份莫說分手不是無
由，希望看到上述的四個階段，真能給大家一些啟示與領悟並惜緣，我們會逐漸
變成我們所愛的人。

妳和他本來沒有相同之處，外表不相像，性格也是南轅北轍，一旦愛上了，年深
日久，妳會驚訝妳的眼睛有點像他的眼睛，他的微笑也有點像妳的微笑。

你們走路的步伐也有點相似，說話的語氣也愈來愈相像。

他的脖子上有一顆痣，一天，妳發現自己脖子上也多了一顆痣，原來我們會變成
我們所愛的人。

妳本來喜歡腳踏實地的人，而他一向比較輕佻，但你們愛上了，他竟會不知不覺
變成一個老實人，這個改變，連他自己也不曾察覺。

他本來喜歡活潑的女孩子，卻愛上了拘謹的妳，這些日子，妳竟愈來愈活潑，妳
差點認不出自己。

逐漸變成對方理想中的人，這種改變，絕對不是刻意的。

兩個人愈愛得長久，氣質也愈來愈相近，妳曾經以為他不是妳夢寐以求的那種類
型，然而，有一天，妳驚訝地發現，他已經變成妳喜歡的那種類型，妳不必再到
處尋覓，他就是妳要找的人。

深深愛著一個人的時候，妳原來真的會一點一點的失去自己，為甚麼妳還會覺得
快樂呢？

大概是因為妳在失去的當兒，也是賺了，妳把他的氣質和他的微笑都賺回來。

幸福很單純

所以要很單純的人才容易獲得.......

地球這麼大，世界這麼廣，不去走走看，怎麼知道你的黑夜是別人的白天

我是名副其实的穷光蛋

2009-10-06T12:40:00.003+08:00

什么都要钱钱钱

我现在就是没有钱钱钱！

我要做有钱人啊！！

Sibeh 压力，什么时候才有工作，人家我的薪水要求都降低那么多了...

学人家搞什么兴趣啦，现在这种冷门的工作那么难找，看你怎么坚持兴趣还有饭吃！！

Argh！

我要钱！！！

要被逼疯了，因为我真的是名副其实的穷光蛋了...

不能买好吃的，做好吃的东西，买好用的oven, 还有去旅行...

什么都没有，就是有时间和depressed mood =(

没有quanlity但有quantity的人生还有意义吗？
不如过得有quality但短暂的生命，至少那会让人记得的灿烂一幕。

中秋节快乐

2009-10-02T14:41:00.007+08:00

Net said, when going gets tough and tough gets going. She hopes that I will taste the fruit of my 'labour' soon.

What an motivated phrase to me.

At this moment, I need motivational encouragement to get me going.

Another friend talked to me yesterday, she inspired me to live up my resume and change to a more outstanding one. Be flexible. I shall not be obstructed by my stubborn mindset. Change the pathway, the requirement. Different road may lead to the same destination, or even better ones.
Sometimes, I regret for letting go the first job, at least till this point...

Anyway, Happy Mooncake Festival aka Mid Autumn Festival. Now, I know the reason of naming it as 'Mid Autumn Festival'. It's Autumn now =) How I miss those days, especially when I saw a junior of mine who have just arrived in the UK, posted up photos in orangie, yellowish and reddish.

中秋节快乐 =)

What a long missed sunset.

The Mooncake festival celebration at Changi Beach. A much less crowded beach as compared to ECP but the flights' landing do annoy a little.

Well, a nice weekend =)

Just to release....

2009-09-27T22:17:00.004+08:00

Where's my job???

God will lead me to the way, right?

Sometimes I can be too depressed that I want to stop hunting jobs.
Let me be the society rubbish.
Or I should have known a rich guy and get married to be shao nai nai...muahaha
but, you know, the fact is cruel.

That day, one of my SP classmate asked me: How many months are you prepared to be jobless.
I answered: I thought only one month...but it's going to be 2 months. Now, I foresee at least 3 months.

I heard of at least 2 people, one is fresh grad and another one is food technologist with almost 10 years experience, both waited 4 months before they started the recent career path...

Argh... #$%$$%#$@

My 'sent mail' indicates that I have sent out 23 job application emails, this excludes those applied via email/website...

HAiz....

I'm back to join the job hunt force.

2009-09-24T13:14:00.004+08:00

回到家乡充电去了。

I enjoyed the stress-free life in hometown!!

现在回来再开始找工咯～～

It's a brand new me!

祝福自己~~~

Confidence restored.

顺便祝我亲爱的男朋友开始更美好的一年~

Happy 25th Birthday to my uncle ong ong...

请大家记得他已经25岁了...heeezzz...

谢谢大家的出席
为什么我们忘记拍全家福 =(

这个周末记得拍 =)

最好赚的行业

2009-09-20T22:28:00.002+08:00

女人的钱，最好赚。
教育的钱，也好捞。

这次回到槟城，更让我发现...
神明的一切，是唯一一种现象你会发现安娣不但不讨价还价还非常心甘情愿地给钱！

话说，因为母亲大人发现我找工的压力，所以带我去找这里很著名的关公大人。
之前也有朋友提议我到bugis拜拜，我懒惰而已...
这次母亲大人忙碌之中也要带我去，那我就带着'试试看'的心态去了。
心里想，求个平安吉利，只要不过度相信，而且不是花费庞大，最多包个小红包就好...

在那里等了近两个小时才轮到我们...
我看到还有印度人在等，看到‘关公’不断念念有词，给了很多护身符，至少在我前面的都给了5-10张了。
终于轮到我们了，还以为‘关公’会给我一些建议...
但是他看了我，看了手掌，问了工作性质，没说啥。
要了名字和生辰八字，给了符头，在背后和额头盖了‘神印’，给了2粒橙，一些彩色豆（红豆、绿豆、薏米等），要我当晚９时后依照指示拜天宫，还有用７色花等冲凉...

看完‘关公’后，妈妈意思给了一个小红包（我不知道多少，大概10块吧），
后来才发现护身符还有这些拜天宫的橙+彩色豆都要另外付费的。
好吧，找了那里的负责人，他在计算机上按了6.8+68, 然后说'75块'!!

我以为他按错，但是妈妈没反应，给了钱...

我心里的眼睛是瞪得大大的，但是给关公的面子，我不语...

上车后，我问妈怎么会那么贵...
妈妈说，前面的人拿了两张护身符，给了150块...

我傻掉...

再问: 护身符有那么贵吗？

妈平静地说：平常都是十多二十多块而已...

我疑惑地问：你听到价钱没有吓到吗？

妈还是很平静地说：有一点点...

但是我妈还是很平静，而且不多说一句.

我心里也有一点不满，但是神明的事，还是不能多说...

我只能说，拜了神，吃了符，喝了彩色豆，拿着护身符,
能不能让我遇到贵人，找到好工作，我真的不知道。
我唯一能够确定的是，原来被‘神’看中的‘幸运’人士真的财运滚滚来的。

试想想，如果真的失业很久，75块是一笔大数目。
因为省吃俭用，我可以用很久。

想说，在我之前已经给了约10张护身符，我之后还有一条长长队伍，
你能算到一天给了20张护身符，他们收了多少钱吗？
这只是一天的收入而已，他们是全年无休的，算算看啊！

而且再吝啬的华人，都会心甘情愿地给！　

hmm, 告诉我，还有什么比这个行业更能财源滚滚来？
而且失业率越高，这个行业更好捞!!

我算算说坏话，然后不保佑我？
我是在分析状况，没有说坏话，好不好，
我相信护身符和拜神或许可以为我更容易遇到事业上的贵人，
但是，他们的收费真的太高了，比同行的要求更高哦！

听说，他们在这里很红，那个‘幸运人士’还是驾Merc的Wor...

突然，我也想被神明看中...呵呵...
下一世，我的八字要生得美一点..呵呵...

拜了神，拿了护身符，花了大钱，事业运来啊来啊！

兩次的失眠

2009-09-17T23:42:00.003+08:00

人生高低起伏不斷。

經過了一個高潮，馬上把我送進無比的低點。

24小時内，我失眠了兩次。
第一次是讓我非常意外的電話，滿心歡喜地期待隔天...
熊貓眼見人后，結果遠遠不如所預期的，第二個晚上我又失眠了。

一次因爲興奮而心跳加速
一次因爲失望和被傷了小小的玻璃心

我知道，沒有回頭路，只有找出路。

天意弄人...

如果時光倒流，我想回到08年的10月頭，我會重新選擇。

這次的固執，好像帶來了反效果。

但願明天會更好...
家鄉，我回到你的懷抱讓你安慰我，給我力量走下去，給我找到出路，好嗎？

觅工1个月纪念日

2009-09-14T13:47:00.010+08:00

从8月15日那天开始寄出第一份履历表后，我才知道一直以来自己的自信心是过渡爆满了。

以为自己可以找到一份薪金不错、5天工作日、至少14天年假、喜欢的工作.....

可是，这一个月来，我的自信心不断被磨薄了...

我可以庆祝‘找工一个月但仍待业中’的纪念日吗？

这一个月来，过得好漫长。

什么时候我才能有钱握在手里？
花自己赚的钱是愉快的...
那种感觉久违了。

什么时候才能计划下个出游的日子
什么时候再强力打造更美丽的皮肤
什么时候能够买个实用的压力电锅
什么时候可以放肆地吃喜爱的食物
什么时候可以加入姐姐的存钱行列
什么时候可以计划美丽期待的未来
什么时候我可以实在地实现购买欲

只能安慰自己说...
我仍然享受当宅女....
几天不出门，真的无所谓....

因为那只是回到英国的时光....
只是少了课业的压力，多了工作的渴望...

说真的，本小姐不期待庆祝觅工2个月纪念日。

话说，原来好多英国的同学都还未找到工作；
选择继续深造的同学是明智地选择吧？羡慕ing...

找到工作后...
好想好想去seoul garden疯狂地吃韩国餐。
因为最近在看花样男孩，爱上韩国话、韩国餐~~

yum yum...

或许另一个值得期待的事情是...
Probably coming long weekends I'm going back to Penang!!
Oh, i miss fishesssssss!!

Muahaha...

什么时候我可以一个月回家一次~~
感动、感恩。

老天还对我不薄~
gamsa hamida

p/s: im going to be officially StarXXX user with the existing number...muahaha... Say bye to the stupid SingXXX~

It's the falling leaves season.

2009-09-11T11:51:00.002+08:00

A season of my love.

A season of depression.

A season of romantic.

A season of colour.

谈季节

2009-09-09T13:13:00.007+08:00

再来一个...

话说，英国已逐渐进入秋季，正如大多数的国家。

我想大概只有澳洲的季节性是相反的。

近日，也与韩国一位朋友联系，他们那里也进入秋天了。

其实，我们这些热带孩子是否发现，周围的大树也开始大量地落下黄红色的叶子？

至少，我家这里的红绿灯两旁的书都缓缓落下漂亮的叶子，走在树下，让我顿时错愕我在英国，但是，天气就让我摇了头。

我开始回想，5、6、7月的时候，这里的天气酷热地让人受不了，那是因为很多国家也是夏天的季节啊

再想想，上次很多地方（包括槟城和新加坡）都看到樱花似的树和落叶，那是近春季啊！

年未，就是冬天的季节了，我们这里总是下雨，天气也会凉凉的，期待吧！

最近看到家里附近的落叶，心情特别好噢！～　

大家有看到落叶，麻烦拍照给我看，因为本人都不带相机出门的～感激哦～～

我又跌入回忆的漩涡里～

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相公，去德国拍美丽的秋天给我看，好吗？

那一定很漂亮....

看了sue的照片，我才知道德国的魅力在哪里...

你要珍惜这次的机会，在最美的季节去了自己最想去的国家，应该是一个很美的旅程。

加油把论文写好，就可以安心地去玩了~~！！

想你哦！

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090909

2009-09-09T12:27:00.007+08:00

Finally it's 090909.

I have been waiting for this date for 2 years...because it's 2oth birthday of my close junior. I have been reminding him about this date since his 18th. Haha...

Nevertheless, this date signifies the longevity and long lasting for LOVE and also many many things!!

Hence, I'm showing few photos and hoping everyone lives the life the fullest in a colourful way and sweet sweet love life =)

Interesting sweets from Laoda, from Aussie.

Sushi made on Monday, 7 Sept.
I love the colourful combination :p

Sushi made on 28 July 2009.

Many couples register today hoping to get the blessings.
Wish them stay happily ever after!!

Good day to all!!!

愿大家090909
爱情甜甜蜜蜜，长长久久
健康平平淡淡，长长久久
事业步步高升，长长久久
人生五彩缤纷，长长久久

^_^

The 3D movie

2009-09-09T12:05:00.013+08:00

my sixth sense is whispering at my ears that the hope has gone.

No calls/interviews after 2days. I'm going to call them later.

Kinda down and depressed, after looking for job close to one month and I'm still jobless.

However, I try to enjoy the days to the fullest.
Example, I wake up naturally as I could, till 9 or 10am each day, cook meals few times in a week, read nutrition related books to back up my knowledge... Reading those books during exam and own leisure time has a distinct difference feeling.

It was a grant housemates-outing last night to watch the 3D Final Destination 4. All attended. Full of laughters. First, BC and I were asked to show our ICs (PLEASE AGREE THAT WE LOOK LIKE TEENAGERS UNDER 18). Before watching this movie, I have totally no idea what's about this movie and just agreed to watch because of housemates. I was wondering why there is an age restriction...until the time kept passing...I keep closing my eyes and holding his hands tightly throughout the 1.5hour........... What a HORRIBLE movie....

Nice 3D effect, but what a stupid movie plot. Everything goes back into the beginning.

Then, please make sure you have a strong heart, without heart problems and not pregnant....

Thank god I did not watch FD1-3.

It's time to hunt job again~~!!!

After an interview...

2009-09-07T16:07:00.004+08:00

I'm just back from an interview.

The working environment and job scope what this private and small consultant and training company offers is definitely my cup of tea. I have totally forgotten the working day, annual leaves, working hours etc. Because I will accept as long as it is not too bad...as I want to grab the opportunity for learning and advancement!!!

Well well well, I have no idea how well am I doing. I have just sent my final year project dissertation for their reference and I need to do one more presentation, like giving a food and nutrition talk to the public before the answer reveals.

I'm getting well with the interviews, or maybe all the interviewers I have come across are so good that I'm not nervous but showing my confidence and the humble and keen to learn attitude. This time, the interviewers really go into details about my modules taken, my life in the UK, Registered Nutritionist status etc... They are really serious about me, I guess.

Hope for the best...I want this job...Anyway these ppl know Ms. Toh from SP and they are meeting her, few hours after my interview. Maybe Ms Toh will remember me, maybe not. I was a good student, Im not worried for Ms. Toh's comments..muahaha..

Hope to get their reply soon...

It was a great meet up with jan and fx last friday. Fx is so much prettier and femine and that proves the power of love?? Jan is still the same, both appearance and curiousity characteristic.Hope 1B27 December outing can be done!

It was a great meet up last night with zoo, after a year!! Thanks for the souvenirs from Aussie, Redang.. Also Holland and HK ones, which I get it previously. I'm excited for the jersey thingy.Please remember, my lucky and preferred number is No.1. Thanks Laoda and CM.

Why everyone must buy souvenirs each time you are out of town. Since I went to UK, I get souviners from Genting, Batam, Redang, Melaka, KL... Sometimes, I feel so shame for not buying a lot or individual gifts for friends during my trips, but sometimes this action is appropriate for not wasting the money (check in luggage or the price of the souviners) and protect the earth for not generating the unnecessary things indirectly. Again, this is a unique practice among Chinese. Unavoidable.

Perhaps somebody will see this as my excuse for not buying too much souvenirs. I would prefer buying foods as souvenirs than typical ones-keychains, which will most likely keep in a safe place away from dust, forever.

Anyone appreciates postcards that I value more than keychain?? Would a postcard be a better, meaningful and more environment-friendly souvenirs??

Anyway, I do appreciate those souvenirs which have been traveled by flight, bus or boat and deliver to my hands!! But you can exclude me if you are sort of money, or luggage space, I really dont mind... Bring me foods or postcards better :p

Interviews, jobs...come and find me!!!

维持远距离爱情的条件

2009-09-04T13:21:00.005+08:00

维持远距离爱情有3大非常重要的条件：

（1）这个人必须是具备独立的个性与独立生活的能力，不会因为你不在身边就会无法生活或睡不着。如果这个人，在日常生活非常依赖的话，绝对不会是好人选。因为这个人会有意无意制造了很多机会让第三者趁虚而入。毕竟人非草木，有个人每天对你献殷勤，甚至让你产生依赖的感觉，难保你不会忘记远方的那位，改投他人怀抱享受温暖。

（2）面对寂寞的能力：寂寞往往是远距离恋爱的最大杀手！离乡背井最糟糕的状况就是因为人生地不熟，让你的情绪有非常孤立的感觉，特别是去到文化语言完全不一样的国家，你会因为思乡及相思而倍感寂寞。寂寞是一种让你失去的理智的情绪，会推你去做很多很多破坏关系的事情。因此，克服寂寞或者不让自己寂寞是远距离恋爱中重要的功课。让自己在念书的时间过得多姿多彩，培养更多的嗜好，不要让自己完全依赖恋爱来解除寂寞。要知道，当你不断的想念对方而无法见时，你会容易怨恨。特别是你遭遇问题时，对方无法在身旁时，那种感觉，会让你一直想放弃。所以，要清晰知道，你要具备解决问题的能力，不要让自己有这种情绪出现。还要清楚知道，一旦接受远距离，就要接受这些连带的副作用。不能拿这做借口。

（3) 无比的信心与信任加上宽容体谅跟大方的心。远距离另一个最大的问题就是双方无法知马上看到对方而产生很多的猜疑，甚至怀疑对方有没有背叛或偷吃，结果就衍生一堆负面情绪等等。这个时候，我说的条件就派上用场了。你必须有信心知道你是对方心目中最好的，对方不管走了多远，最后还是会在你身边的。就像放风筝似的，只要线在你的手中就可以了。然后永远保持正面的想法，就算对方无法马上回电或msn什么的，也不代表不爱你或去偷吃了。更难做到的是，在这个不人道的相恋过程，如果对方有时候因为历练不够，把持不住，做了坏蛋，你能有原谅的或接纳对方错误的胸襟吗？因为距离跟时间，所以远距离恋爱要投入的时间精神跟资源，是一般恋爱无法比拟的。因此，要有清晰的认知，这是一场长期战争，过程可能会很多的状况，可是，大家要记得最终目标是什么，过程的细节，就不要太在意了。

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在网上看到这篇论文，发现...我非常同意笔者的三大论点。

独立是我的特点，却也差点成为爱情的绊脚石；面对寂寞也是最大的问题，尤其是当你想念他时，看到成双成对的人儿；对对方的信心、信任是取决于对方的性格和人格，宽容体谅大方的心是自己对某些事情的看法，也非常重要，不然就会搞扎了~！第3个条件，是刚开始时最难的挑战，之后的挑战大多是考验第2条件。

说真的，没有办法独立，不能信任对方/使人信任的人，远距离的相处方式是不行的。

有时候，远距离让爱情保有一些距离的美和甜，是不错的。

有时候，我也眷恋起远距离爱情的美丽和甜蜜 =P

农历７月１５的感言

2009-09-03T18:06:00.006+08:00

今天，农历７月１５。

因为衣着需要，我穿了正式的上班服出门，结果热死我～

离题一下，最近虽然还是失业中，但开始建立和学习自己的专业。

正式的事情结束后，我走马看花。我独自走在牛车水一带，周围的人群使我想起今天是鬼节正日。

在牛车水，白皮肤的老外特别多，有些还拿着长长的镜头摄影。可惜，我再往上看天空，一片灰蒙蒙，低头看看左右，好多安娣正烧着冥纸，有些老外一脸疑惑的看着这些安娣的举动...

汗流浃背的我，当时怀念起英国和欧洲。因为她们的蓝天白云特别鲜明，没有太多高楼大厦的阻扰，天气也特别凉快。但，在巴黎铁塔的那天，热得我们快崩溃。相比之下，英国的夏天，不会比欧洲的热，因为英国怎么说也是一个岛，也偏北。还有，我好久没有看到美丽的夕阳了。好怀念那16天夏日欧洲之旅的天天夕阳惊喜。这里，我只看到迷糊的夕阳妹妹，躲在政府组屋大厦后的她。

全球暖化问题，华人是最大的问题来源之一。一个孟兰节，公众就公然大肆焚烧纸张，搞得天气变得更热。本来这几天的天气已经较凉快了，但昨夜开始又变得好热。今天我才恍然大悟，这几天的天气一定跟焚烧纸张有直接的关系。

写着写着，
窗外下起大雨来了，但还是很热，我...对于这里的天气...无话可说...

继续焚烧纸张问题...

个人对华人的习俗和宗教的信仰不太热诚，因为个人认为这些举动，真的有点浪费资源兼破坏坏境。但是，无可否认，这是华人社会的丰富文化之一。除了孟兰节，还有华人的婚礼，一堆习俗要根据，浪费很多资源，因为很多东西必须是新的，必须有的，必须做的，即浪费钱又浪费资源，再循环是真的能够保护地球。

奈何，我还是生长在传统的华人社会，长辈吩咐的一些礼仪需求，我会配合，也不会要求别人不根据传统习俗。但是，我是不会主动贡奉神鬼二界，因为这些举动实在是对资源和环境的破坏，而且你做了，你真的认为‘它们’有收到吗？至于相信它们存在吗，这个问题，还是见仁见智，反正河水不犯井水就对了。

想想，年轻的一代已经不会根据爸妈的习惯，每逢初一十五、鬼节、端午节等等的华人节日贡奉神鬼二界，到时难道它们就不会保佑/会触犯你吗？说真的，我不认为不按时供奉它们会给我们的生活素质带来什么样的影响。反而，我觉得到时候钱可以省起来，时间可以拿来做有意义的事情，资源可以更有效率的使用。

这半个月的鬼日，我都不觉得有什么特别的问题。因为新加坡的人肯定多过那些鬼，他们肯定怕死了...muahaha...话说，鬼其实是怕人的，更何况新加坡最多的就是人，怕什么？？？

最后，我想表达自己的立场，我比较相信自己看到和感受的东西，我相信保护地球比较实际和重要。焚烧纸张擦它们的马屁，不如保护环境，给我们还有下一代更好的生活环境吧。不然，科学式的世界末日，真的很快就会来临。想想到底我们的下一代要怎么生活下去？有时候，想到我们的精神社会，还有环境那么腐败，我就不想繁育以免危害下一代了...哈哈...但是，这个不是个人可以选择的事情 =P

心情不好，小后悔

2009-08-31T16:01:00.004+08:00

折腾了4天，虽然心想要，但兴趣也必须配合现实。

如6天制的工作，我真的不喜欢...

所以我今早拒绝了，但一整天却闷闷不乐的。

我真的希望我能够尽早找到另一份适合自己又不必星期六工作的...营养师职位

真的辜负了非常看好我的chief nutritionist.

真的，这好像是近年来做得最后悔的决定了！ T_T

努力找工作吧！
我真的讨厌量地官的工作 T_T

I rejected. I'm still hunting.

2009-08-31T14:26:00.005+08:00

I rejected it.
After one face-to-face session and several calls for convincing me.

If I were to follow my heart, I would choose it.
It tailors to my characterisitc, I would enjoy it.

Nevertheless, I value personal time.
Apart from it, I care my future career path.

Personal development time and relationship are intangible.

Feel upset for letting go something that I would love,
and disappointing the person who values and highly expects me;
in the exchange of personal time and unknown future.

God bless that I'm on the right path...

Searching for the right one...

Creating the good future ...

Overcoming the depression and upset...

UUMmmm, kimchi instant noodles cure half of the regretfulness.

27 August

2009-08-27T00:59:00.004+08:00

It's 27 August, Ryian's birthday, happy birthday to him. Today's also laoda's graduation ceremony, wish him all the best in the future and secure a job ASAP!

It's also important, because I have a job interview, which is not really my interested field, but since I've no calls for interview, I've decided to try it out.

I've been to SP yesterday, after meeting a food junior who is going to UK soon, and settling MOE stuff. I walked from Buona Vista to Dover, memories arose. And then, Dover to Clementi as we used to walk to makan there. The walks are the way to find old memories.

SP has changed a lot, the basement of library has extended and it looks good!! FC2 is well renovated~! SP collaborates with University of Manchester and they have an established and modern eyecare center, which is so cool! SP is getting greater and I'm always proud of SP! All the memories in SP are unforgettable and it made the greater me ^^ Oh friends, so glad to meet you guys there!!

I did not manage to find Mrs Tay, strangely I only wish to see Mrs Tay but not other lecturers... Erm... Mrs Tay is the most neutral and closer lecturer :p

Today, I went to Jurong East Library to find a book titled as 'what your doctor doesnt know about nutritional medicine may be killing you', to aid in my 1000words writing which will possibly grand me an interview. However, the book is on loan and the nearest library to get the book is Boon Lay one, I'm going to get it on Friday when I meet up FX!!

I've also borrowed few books related to Nutrition. It is good for reading, but not for assignment/exam! I've finished reading an interesting book titled as : How to achieve & maintain Slim Malaysians, a Slim Figure for Malaysians. This book is generally highlighting the fact that the nutrition books (majority from western counterparts) over the bookstore are not suitable for Malaysians who are 'live to eat'! General rules apply, for the long term weight and health goal. Forget about Atkin's diet ( low carb-high protein) or any fad diet!! I also dun believe about Atkin, not at all, it would only bring health problem and gain weight once you stop the diet!! I'm definitely against Atkin! The book makes practical dietary senses for Malaysians (which can be applied to Singaporeans too!), most important is to have I.P.S (Ideal Portion Size) regardless of the healthy or not issue. I agree to the author, for most of the points made. Nevertheless, this is aimed for long term weight loss and day to day practical ideas!

Alright, I shall sleep now, prepare for tomorrow's interview ^^

Meeting more friends! YAhoooo... but I'm trying to keep my wallet safe :p

Ohh...I cooked several meals these few days and I hate my housemate who labels me as a 'failure cook'... I will try hard :p

The girl's secret

2009-08-25T02:36:00.009+08:00

sometimes, ppl thought your boyfriend will take good care of you and you are contented with a lovely boyfriend, you can live your life just like that.

god knows you need friends too. Caring and loving friends who give you little birthday gift, who chat about your life, and who remember your favourite book, food, place or activity.

Because sometimes boyfriend is dum.

Because sometimes girl talk is an effective emo therapy.

Because sometimes girl boycotts guys!

Because girl prefers a man who owns my xiang gong personality- caring, sweet, understoond, lovely to you!!

This is only a small secret. you (anyone of you) may know more than me :p

My secret is that... my parents are my lovely friend who can make me laugh and happy =)

现实，真的好残酷之沉思与忧郁篇

2009-08-25T00:00:00.007+08:00

这刻，新马午夜12点正...

今夜，是我回国以来第一次屈指一算英国的时间，是下午5点。

我，正在想念相公，她没有在线，
应该是为论文做最后的冲刺，默默在地球的另一端为她打气，就快熬过，硕士就是你的！

这刻，是离开英国１个月纪念日。

今夜，感性与忧郁带领我的思绪，开始沉思．．．

一切的英国画面，如烟雾散开的速度离去，我又回到朦胧前的位置。

回到同样的位置，环境和心境却变了。

那种任性不顾后果积极去流浪的心已逝，留下一颗焦虑且沉重的心，
随着年纪增长并达成最初的梦想后，占领世界地图的欲望变得次等，
务求财经富足，再来达成一些有钱才能实现的梦想...

此刻，我也成了世俗现实的一群人，
渺小的我，也开始成了钱的奴隶？

非也非也...

没有多点钱，我不能让爸妈早点退休享福了
没有多点资金，我们姐妹俩的愿望不能实现
没有赚钱，我不能拥有自己的家、自己的厨房
没有额外的钱，我的脸就不美了...

也因为此刻我是超级穷光蛋一名，而且有许多钱的顾虑，
并还未找到工作，职业计划有点模糊，而稍微乱了阵脚。

随之，在新加坡，小女也成了宅女一名，
要是花人家的钱，没有自己花钱的自由，日子很郁闷...

找了一个星期兼两天的工作，送出了至少7分履历表，
还填了没有vacancy但个人钟意的几家公司关于自己的学历工作经验等等资料，

我只在今天收到一个电话，一个迫不得已申请的唯一瘦身公司，
薪水却低于个人要求，还是5.5天制的...
还有还有，之前还有一家超级专业的医学私人公司回复我的邮件，请看以下：

Thank you for your application. XX is poised to become one of the leaders in healthcare. Our areas of focus in health care are: lifestyle movement, preventative, nutritional, functional, occupational, complementary and integrative medicine. Our staff will be trained in state-of-the-art wellness screening and counselling. We strongly believe that candidates who invest time and resources training with us will have an even better edge in today's rapidly developing field in healthcare.

For more details about our state-of-the-art wellness screening technology and clinical nutrition please visit our website. You can also read about our successes and testimonials in the section on medical tourism at our website.

Kindly write the essays below and submit as soon as possible. This will form part of our assessment of candidates.

1. Please describe your interest in nutrition, and why you want to be a Certified Clinical Nutrition Consultant. (min 500 words, max 1000)

2. Why is Clinical Nutrition a very important health-care specialty? (min 500 words, max 1000)

You can read more about clinical nutrition and functional medicine on our website www.omnigreenwellness.com. Key words to search google other web sites: clinical nutrition, benefits of supplements. Textbooks are also good sources. Useful books include 'What Your Doctor Does Not Know about Nutritional Medicine could be killing you.' The last few chapters are good reading.

For essay format, please do the following:
1.submit your essays with your full name, identity number and date of submission on the header of every page.
2.use a different MS word file for each assignment question and include the question.
3.check for spelling, grammar and typo mistakes, as these will be penalized.
4.use your own words, copying is strictly prohibited.
5.include references at the end of each essay as needed.

以为脱离了写作业的日子，现在还要写１０００个字!而且跟大学的作业一样，不得有任何相像的字眼，必须有参考的书本等等...我还在认真考虑要不要走向这么专业的clinical nutritionist呢！

我不否认如果公司给我机会，我会很感激并认真做下去，就算薪水很差~！
但是，这是非常专业的领域，之前clinical nutritionist已经被我否决了，但目前只有这家公司开始给我机会，我是应该好好把握这次的机会，就算知道自己知识不如人，但是个很好的机会，看看自己的能力在哪里？好，明天我就开始写这些文章!

难道这里的营养师不是特别专业的临床营养师，就是减肥中心？

营养师．．．我一定会找到出路的，不然我必须向现实低头，走回食品路线了~！

现实，真的好残酷...

在新加坡找工的日子

2009-08-20T20:31:00.007+08:00

在新加坡等待工作的日子很难熬。

习惯了在英国懒散的日子，虽然我回来新马3个星期了，平均一个星期只外出3天见朋友，但我觉得频率很高。因为我在英国，1个星期也最多只有2、3天跟我的相公聚餐一次。最近也一直在联络回旧朋友，个个我都想念，但是就是懒惰出门...

在槟城，我可以天天窝在家里，就是等待跟爸爸妈妈吃午餐和宵夜的机会...偶尔看看戏，生活写意，而且没有金钱压力...在槟城的2个星期，见朋友的日子也只占了4个晚上吧。我还是最享受弟弟疼我的时候...还有跟爸爸撒娇的时候，妈妈吃我干醋的时候。什么时候，家永远是最棒的。今年生日的时候，爸爸问我要什么，我回复他的简讯说，我要爸爸妈妈健健康康，永远比今天恩爱...我好爱他们，他们永远都是最爱我的~

在新加坡,我还是比较喜欢天天窝在家里，因为可以省下饭钱和交通费，可以随便吃个面、炒个饭还是豆沙饼/香饼就是一餐，回来这里，我也见了几次朋友还有小舅一家，下个星期也会见见要去英国的学妹、anniechong、zoo、fx & jan 、刚上来新工作的家乡好友等等，都是我好想念的朋友，但是骨子里就是藏着英国带回来的宅女病毒...而且外出就是要花钱嘛，在家随便饼干公仔面都能饱肚，家里还有蛋糕呢！哈哈！不过，家里的冰箱确实有水果，有菜，有牛奶，他没有让我饿肚子啦。

在这里，没有工作真的很压力...电话需要签、MOE要跑一趟、外出吃喝都要$$、美容巨额、还有租金呢！一堆一堆都是新币，让我好压力...不过，还好啦...还撑得过去，希望快点让我看到职业的曙光~ 我需要一份高薪福利好有前途的工作，pls~~~

然后我才可以计划接下来的路，
看到一次又一次的廉价航空机票促销，我只能视而不见...
看到美丽的衣衫，我只能望梅止渴...
还有很多很多要花钱的地方...哈哈...

我有努力找工，但工作真的不多，有很多自己钟意的公司/政府机构我都自动投上了履历表，希望快点收到电话/答复！Pray!!

还有，星期六suntec有career fair,我会去lo~~

这几天就是上网找工，不然就看戏咯！不过，这个星期因为我的生日，朋友聚会等等，只有2天在家吃饭哦！我们都很喜欢在家吃饭！！以后希望有时间，在家里随便煮随便吃都痛快过在hawker center解决吧？我家ｕｎｃｌｅ很喜欢吃住家菜～哈哈～

Life after 23~!

2009-08-19T10:31:00.004+08:00

Just little annoucement to all my friends that...

I'm back to Singapore and still using the same old number, please contact me if you still keep my old number. Millions of thanks!

Currently, I'm trying hard to search job, which is related to Nutrition and food. Please intro me, if you have lobang!~ Billions of thanks!!

This is my new life after 23! I must find a good job offering good salary and opportunity for advancement!

Birthday is not as fantastic as previous years as I age. Nevertheless, I'm still feeling warm to have friends sending sms or messages via emails/fb/blog... Thanks mates! I feel so warm to have you all!This proves that I still hold a little position in their hearts, although most of them get notified by fb... but that's fine. haha...

Thanks HLs for the steamboat and celebration on Saturday and my dear dear for the stars illuminator and... bedsheet? hahaha...oops. not forgetting the meaningful cake.

Birthday card from xianggong.....btw, i did get a muffin on 18/08/09, though it's one day later :p

Hope one of my birthday wishes to be realised soon. I need a good pay nutriton/food related job with good working scope offering career advancement :p otherwise, you guys may end up seeing me in the schools..muahaha

黄明志最新作品～

2009-08-09T14:53:00.002+08:00

我知道我放这个，有人又要讲我了。。。
可是我不管，因为很好笑下～
这是黄明志为好友制作的结婚短片～
最后也挺感动的～

070809-最丢脸的一天

2009-08-08T02:05:00.008+08:00

今天，是我人生驾驶记录中最丢脸的一天...

我把家里新的vios 撞上一辆罗里，人是没事啦，但可怜的新车，不到一年的新车就这样左边最性感的地方全部有我为她毁容了...期待他被修复的一天....

haiz...最近不是很想驾车了，打算请司机...

haiz...

自觉丢脸到不行......

不想驾车了，大受挫折......

不要再笑我了，害我内疚死了.......

努力帮家里做做工，花费从那里扣吧～

我真的讨厌驾车了 >_<

我本来以为今天我很厉害，一个槟城路痴可以载妈妈到槟城的医院，那个很多one way的槟城路，我真的很讨厌。

结果发生事情竟然就在家前面的大路，非常不爽自己的错误判断...

最后是想说，爸爸很伟大，在大马路上帮我打电话处理事情，也没有责怪我，所以他好man哦～

然后弟弟一来到就一直笑我～

最后的最后，半夜1点处理好事情，我们去吃煮炒...

因为爸爸说他很开心，不是我被人假假kiss到车，然后打抢还是什么不愉快的事情...

发生这种事情，发现家人好伟大，因为明明是我的错，但是他们都没有责怪我，爸爸只是说：你的license很厉害(自己心里想，是英国license的错，哈哈）
爸爸最后还是那句名言：钱是拿来花的～

我的感言是：庆幸我是在新加坡工作，不必使用车子，不必驾驶的～好烦的车子问题～～

一个爱情故事 - 手机和四川地震

2009-07-31T20:30:00.002+08:00

毕业时，女孩子对男孩子说：我要去北京，北京的中关村有中国硅谷之称，那里机遇多，以后容易发达。
　　
　　男孩子说：那我就回四川老家，那里是天府之国，美女多，以后你发达了不要我，我容易再找。
　　
　　女孩子的小拳头在男孩子厚实的胸前轻敲，嘟起了小嘴儿，说你就知道想美女，哼，就算以后我不要你了，你也只能想着我爱着我，不许你找别的女孩子。
　　
　　男孩子握住女孩子的手，深情的在她的额头印上一吻，说，傻丫头，咱们的父母都在四川呢，你去北京了，我这个好女婿，当然得回去照顾岳父岳母啦。
　　
　　女孩子的星目里闪着泪花，投进男孩子的怀里，再也不起来。
　　
　　两人异地相隔但是情愫不减，浓浓的相思当然只能靠无线电波来传递，发短信，打电话，两个人向祖国通讯事业的营业额尽心尽力的贡献着。
　　
　　一天，女孩子在网上读到一个故事，说的也是一对情侣的故事，每次打电话，那个男孩子都会等女孩子先挂电话，当女孩子经历了世事沧桑之后，她才发现，原来这个世上最爱自己的男人，就是那个每次打电话都等自己先挂的男孩子。
　　
　　女孩子记住了这个让她唏嘘流泪的故事，那天晚上打完电话，她对男孩子说：你先挂电话。
　　
　　男孩子一愣，说，傻丫头，挂电话还分什么先后啊。
　　
　　女孩子撒娇，说，不嘛不嘛，就得你先挂电话，不听我以后不理你了，让你找不到老婆。
　　
　　男孩子停了几秒钟，轻笑了下，说知道了傻丫头，为了以后我不打光棍儿，我就先挂了哦，就知道浪费电话费。
　　
　　女孩子听见男孩子挂断电话后传来的第一声线路忙音，她开怀的一笑，在心里对男孩子说：亲爱的，我爱你，比你爱我的还要爱。
　　
　　从那以后，两个人打电话，每逢说到再见，她便握住手机静静的听，等男孩子先挂。而男孩子总会笑着亲昵的叫她一声傻丫头，便挂断了电话。
　　
　　时间久了，女孩子渐渐的感到一丝淡淡的委屈：你知道吗你，哼，每次我都等你先挂电话，我这么默默的爱你，你却一点也不知道。她想让男孩子也看看那篇文章，让他知道自己多么爱他，哪天他也能等自己先挂一次电话，自己能切切实实的感受下什么叫被爱，该多好啊。
　　
　　女孩子忍住了，她的幸福中既有甜蜜又有酸涩，她想：能这么一辈子以一个独特的方式深切的爱一个男人，也是一种幸福吧。
　　
　　跟所有的北漂一样，女孩子的日子过的并不舒适，但是能住在筒子楼里，相比那些住地下室的北漂们，女孩子的生活条件算不错的了。初时的雄心壮志已经被磨的只剩下一个小小的尾巴，但是好强的女孩子并没有向男孩子抱怨过什么，她只是更习惯于对男孩子说那句我爱你。
　　
　　筒子楼所在的那个社区治安不太好，甚至还有一个专偷女性内衣的变态狂。以前有同租的女孩儿陪伴，女孩子并没有感觉怎样，但是那个女孩儿因为家里有事告假回家了，留下女孩子一个人住在两室一厅一厨一卫的房子里，她很自然的感觉到孤单害怕。
　　
　　那夜，女孩子在睡梦中被一阵窸窸窣窣的声音惊醒，仔细的听了下，是房门口传来的声音。她抓紧被角，浑身抖作一团，大气不敢出，无助的泪水无声的从眼中涌出来。
　　
　　突然，她的手碰到枕下的手机，仿佛抓住了救命稻草，立刻给男孩子发了一条短信：亲爱的，我怕。
　　
　　其实男朋友远在四川，就算一个信息能起什么作用呢？更何况大半夜的，男孩子可能早关机睡觉了。女孩子忘记了要先报警，在这个最害怕的时刻，她只想起了男孩子。
　　
　　令女孩子惊喜的是，信息发出后几秒钟，男孩子的电话打进来了。她轻轻的接通，听见里面传来男孩子关切的声音：傻丫头，是不是想我了？
　　
　　女孩子尽量压低自己的声音，向男孩子说现在她一个人住在房子里，门外可能有贼，她好害怕。
　　
　　男孩子安慰女孩子别怕，他想了想，对女孩子说：把你的手机外放喇叭打开，把声音开到最大，你慢慢去门口，别怕，亲爱的，相信我，别怕。
　　
　　女孩子冰雪聪明，男孩子一说，她就想到了男孩子的意图：男孩子大声喊话，让外面的人知道，屋里有男人，偷东西或者打别的主意的人，识相的就快走。
　　
　　女孩子战战兢兢的梛到门口，把手机的外放喇叭打开，声音开到最大后，她轻轻的对话筒说：好了，我在门口了，外放小喇叭也打开了。
　　
　　这时候女孩子确认外面有人，而且不是一个，可以听见他们微微的对话声。
　　
　　正当女孩子的身体抖的将要站立不住时，手机里突然大喊一声：他妈的，谁在外面搞我的门啊？屋里的哥儿几个都起来，有客人来了。
　　
　　男孩子的声音高亢而粗犷，在寂静的黑夜了把女孩子吓了一大跳。不过门外的人可能被吓得跳的更高，女孩子只听见一阵扑通扑通的脚步声由近而远，看样子是被吓走了。
　　
　　女孩子舒出一口气，腿一软，摊在地上。
　　
　　男孩子等了一会儿，轻轻的问：外面的人走了吗宝贝？
　　
　　女孩子终于哭出来，对着手机说，亲爱的，我想你。
　　
　　女孩子惊魂未定，男孩子便一直安抚女孩子，那一夜，两个人捧着电话说到天明，女孩子说快挂断吧，打了这么久长途，得花多少钱啊。
　　
　　男孩子笑着说真是个傻丫头，女孩子说就傻，傻才会看上你啊，挂了吧亲爱的，今天上班小心睡着被老板K哦。
　　
　　挂断电话后，女孩子心里一团甜蜜，她享受男孩子给她的安全感，不过美中不足的是，男孩子似乎已经形成先挂电话的惯例了，这次也不例外，女孩子心想：他虽然很好，但是到底不像那个故事中的男孩子爱女孩子那样深的爱我，他都没有让我先挂过电话。
　　
　　天开始热了，女孩子的很多单衣上面都没有口袋，所以很多时候她都忘记带手机，比如下班吃饭时手机忘在办公桌上，比如跟室友出去玩时手机忘在租房里，每次她回来都会收到男孩子的未接电话和信息，也只有这些时候，她才会感觉公平点：哼，每次都先挂我电话，不能及时接你电话，就算是小小的惩罚吧，不许委屈啊，笨猪。
　　
　　五月十二号，普通的不能再普通的一天，女孩子在那个小公司里兢兢业业的做着自己的事，为自己的那点小小的梦想不懈的拼搏着。
　　
　　快下班时，办公室里传起来一个消息：发生了大地震，四川汶川是震中，据说震级跟唐山大地震差不多。
　　
　　女孩子心里一惊，下意识的向口袋里掏手机，忘记带！
　　
　　她立刻拿起办公室里的座机给男孩子打电话，但是拨过去信号就断，再拨家里的座机号码，还是不通，看来四川的通讯设施也被地震破坏殆尽了。
　　
　　一种不祥的预感涌上心头，心急如焚的女孩子再等不及下班，从写字楼里冲下来，招了一辆出租车就向自己租住的筒子楼赶去。
　　
　　打开手机，竟然有五十多条未接电话，全部是男孩子打来的，她一翻，还有一条未读短信——
　　
　　“宝贝，亲爱的，傻丫头，用尽我今生所有的爱叫你，我爱你，比你爱我还要爱。
　　
　　自从那次你坚持让我先挂电话，我就知道，你肯定也看过了那个故事，可是，亲爱的，我想告诉你，我爱你，比你爱我还要爱。
　　
　　其实我也看过那篇故事，很早就看过，那是一个美丽的故事，因为有所憾而美，但是那不属于我们，我不要那种美，那种缺憾的美，我不要！刻骨铭心必将伴随着撕心裂肺，我宁愿两个人平平安安的过一辈子，也不要那种刻骨铭心，我只想伴你过一生，携子之手，与子偕老。
　　
　　我不要那种凄惨的美，我只要实实在在的幸福。我从来不敢忘记带手机，我怕哪天你会想我，如果我没带手机，我怕你也会同我一样沮丧，很多时候，即使是上厕所，我也要把手机揣兜里；我晚上从来不关机，每晚睡前我都更换一次电池，再把铃声调大，我怕你哪个夜里会害怕想跟我说话，如果我关机，你在异乡会更加孤独。
　　
　　你每次都让我先挂电话，我知道那是因为你爱我，我很开心，想起来总是眼里潮潮的；我的电话从来不关机，你却不知道，那是因为我更爱你，别怪我没告诉过你，我的宝贝，我是想等到咱们都老成妖怪时再说。
　　
　　傻丫头，看样子我是没有那个陪伴你一生的福气了，我背上的那块预制板，已经压了我两个多小时，我的整个胸部背部都撕裂般的疼痛，我还能闻见自己流出血的腥味儿，宝贝，我可能无法再陪你继续走下去了。
　　
　　亲爱的，我想听听你的声音，我一遍遍的打你的手机，你为什么不接啊？亲爱的，你听见我在呼唤你吗？亲爱的，这里好黑，我好冷，我想让你抱着我。
　　
　　亲爱的，我的亲爱，我的宝贝，我爱你，我此刻是如此怯懦如此怕死，因为那意味着我再不能吻你疼你。我更担心的是你会因为我而伤心欲绝，别那样，亲爱的，我走了，你在北京再找一个人照顾你，那里成功人士多，机遇多。你是天堂里最圣洁的天使，没有人在你身边保护，我怕你会受到伤害。
　　
　　答应我，亲爱的，如果还有一个男人像我这样爱你，千万别不接他的电话，我知道他那时会有多痛。
　　
　　我不能呼吸了，宝贝，再见了，来世，我一定要做你老公！
　　
　　宝贝，亲爱的，傻丫头，再次用尽我今生所有的爱叫你，我爱你，比你爱我还要爱。”
　　
　　女孩子的泪水似江水决堤，哭到来不及呼吸，她仰头向天，紧闭着双眼发出撕心裂肺的呼喊：
　　
　　“亲爱的，下辈子我还做你的老婆，我再也不会关机了！”

回家真好！我是幸福的！！

2009-07-29T19:36:00.012+08:00

Van van, this is my mee hun kuay version, which is learnt from him. 99% similar. heez...

AA提早起飞和降落，吃了ROTI　CANAI，爸妈才姗姗来迟...但是爸爸一看到我，就好象看到女朋友，瞄一瞄我，说我瘦了，然后很自然地牵起我手，另一只手则帮我提着行李箱 ... 我是很不自然地握着爸爸的手，但是很窝心... 这个传统的华裔男人，总是不轻易把爱表露；今天，也是继很多很多年以后，把我的手再次牵起...我很开心，也有小小的感动和窝心... 我知道爸爸很想念我，很爱我... 我本来也有冲动跑上前去抱住爸爸妈妈，但是基于传统的华人教育背景，这个念头只是一闪而过，爱在心里最好..haha..

所以，我的facebook的nick成了:
今天我是爸爸的女友，爸爸可能靠近20年没牵过我的手了！回家真好！

原来一段小分离，真的可以让爱升华，成长和稳固。不管那是爱情还是亲情。

吃好料是少不了，谢谢姐姐请的‘全槟岛最好吃，最多艺人拜访的面包摊位’，我还是非常期待姐姐请的点心，我回新加坡之前，我会空着肚子等你请的点心，先谢谢～～拜托这位非常有专业记者风范的姐姐，记得把我和爸爸的情侣照，我和妈妈的姐妹照传给我，不要妒忌我们...

午餐也吃海鲜，妹妹这次可可怜了，我终于可以报复她...今年的新年，她对着电话,对身在冬季的英国我说火锅年饼有多好吃，这次在山吧念书的她，尝试到那种吃不到的滋味了～～哈哈～～

弟弟越来越肥，但对我越来越好～～会疼我这个姐姐咯～～

妈妈的眼睛真的退化了，希望8月7号的治疗有帮助～～

他们都老了...他们都应该在这几年退休了～～我要努力赚钱养他们～～

11个月不见的老家，还是那么乱，却还是最舒服的地方～～

好想快点见到外公外婆，我又有新鲜的海鲜吃咯。
但是每个人都告诉我，我尚在危险期，所以还是躲在家里最好，我也乐于躲在家里..heez

一句，回家真好！！

还有另一句是，我是幸福的！！
离开的时候，有个人牵着我的手，另一只手则拖着行李箱；回到家乡，有另一个男人牵着我的手，帮我拖着行李再搬上车...

我要感恩！

还有还有，今天爸爸脸上有光地对一个生意上有来往的SALES小姐说：‘我刚好有空过来，刚从机场载我从英国毕业回来的女儿’，重点是SALES小姐有够假地说：这个是你的女儿啊，那么年轻就大学毕业啦？到底几岁哦？看起来只像18、9岁的女孩～～

不过，本小姐还是有暗地里偷笑两三下～～哈哈～～

I'm back!

2009-07-26T21:44:00.008+08:00

Im embracing the hot air in Singapore and still adjusting jetlag...

I just slept 2-3hrs last night and took a nap for 1 hour this afternoon. It's 9:44pm now, I hope I can sleep well tonight!!

Singapore is just so hot, the hot air is killing me, I think the current accommodation is also too hot that I was feeling dizzy while I was cooking tonight........

Anyway I should have adjusted all this soon...

BTW, for some of you might know that I didnt manage to catch my connection flight from London to Singapore and I was put into the next flight. Due to time constraints, my luggage is not with me, until this point, I guess it's on the way from London now. Hopefully I can get it by Tuesday!!

Then, I'm heading to PG on Wed morning at 7am, thus I will be crossing over to JB on Tuesday!!

Cya Malaysia!! Back to Singapore somewhere in mid August!!! Cya friends!

BTW, until this point, I have coincidently met few friends such as HLs, Uncle Ong's siblings and housemates...hope I'm fine and so they are...haha

Although it's hot here, but it's great to be back..The happiest thing is that I had homemade sushi and mee hun kuay! YUMMY! muahahaha......

the only photo taken. haha

Last hours in the UK

2009-07-24T19:24:00.002+08:00

I'm going to embrace the air in the Singapore!!

HOooooooooorrrray.........

I'm departing in 5hours.......

All the moments would be embedded in my deepest memory ^_^

The most thankful person is my xiang gong!! love you *blush*

I had a great day out with xiang gong yesterday to Angel of the North and metrocentre to celebrate her BURGER DAY and my last 36hours in the UK =P

Thanks for the intense participation in my dream ^^

I'm going to have my last shower, last meal in the uk..and say good bye to UK, say I'm back to Singapore and Malaysia!!

心情很烂

2009-07-22T20:24:00.001+08:00

心情很烂
我很生气自己
我想要封闭自己
不说话不见人不联系不上网
就真的流浪到我不知道的地方
但是就只限于想象！

有时侯真的不知道自己在逃避什么
驼鸟政策是不行的！

一点笑容都挤不出来，怎么办？

wo shi liu lang nv.

2009-07-22T18:57:00.008+08:00

It's true that I'm not only physically liu lang, but also mentally. since I moved out of Lovaine Hall yesterday, I feel I belong to nowhere in the UK.

I stay in travelodge for 2 nights and then 1 night at xiang gong place before boarding the gate, and farewell to my beloved NCL and then leaving UK from London Heathrow.

I have seriously made a mistake for not booking or planning a 4D3N trip to South UK, aka London or Wales. It would my greatest regret in the UK and it marks the irremoveable scars in my UK dream. Ironically, the odd and unpleasant feeling happen in the last few days in the UK, is that true that dreams always end with regrets or unpleasant ones?

I strongly dislike the feeling of ignorance or being a hollow human...I mean I really need attention or not doing as good as others..Now I'm really feeling, somehow UK has ignored me.... I cant wait to embrace the air where I truly belong to and where love is showered. When the congregation ended, I know everything also was wraping up at the same time......

I seriously dislike wasting time here...I cant really walk around the city because of the bad weather, financial concern etc.......haiz....... I dislike this kinda feeling. I mean I may be able to do something, but Im so indecisive for considering many minor thingssssssss...so, ended up being unhappy here...kill me...

Even BA bullies me. I tried to change the flight few days in advance by preparing to pay some fee...but now, even you have $$, you cant change because the flights are all full!!!!!damn it. Ok, I know I'm rude now, but im really not in mood. stay away from me... I'm just angry myself for not planning a trip in advance...and many many reasons deserve the right to blame myself...aiksss

wait...

and wait...

and keep waiting...

24/07..please come faster. You are torturing me for doing nothing here...even engage to internet is not easy =( I feel like missing in the world for few daysssss, before I go back...it just stops at the border and then step backward.

Haizzzz..

Ok, YOU can ignore me, I just wanna shu fa my emotion =(

YOU are right. I dont know what I want now. I know I always need a goal, a target, a dream to chase after.

Dreamless makes me lost in my life.

My big day ^^

2009-07-21T00:09:00.011+08:00

The moment I put on my gown, I feel touched that finally I accomplished my dream, the one that I dare to dream... I felt thankful and hence immediately called parents who were not be able to witness the glorious moment.

When I seated on the H26, in city hall of Newcastle Upon Tyne, while listening to the principal's speech, my mind starts generating another dream..I really wish to put on the gown again...haha...im greedy in other words. Who cares, I dare to dream again..haha..

Ceremony was starting soon..Graduates are not allowed to wear the hat in the hall. According to my friend, wearing hat in the room is irrespective.

I love the ceremony opening, so English ~~

Side view always look better =P

In front of Lovaine Hall

Room 16, to be remembered always. thanks xiang gong for the sunflower which sacrificed alot!! Btw, giving flowers for graduates are uncommon!! only Asian graduates received flowers =P

Heeez

My sweet xiang gong cum camera girl of the day

So fat loh =.= actually its shui zhong aka water retention, i think =(

Good angle..kakazz

Ever see ppl jump in the graduation gown? haha

hahaaa

Ok, I just knew that Jeff was an external examiner in SP years ago!! he was in Singapore for years and he told me he stayed in Clementi!haha!!

The saddest thing was that I couldnt catch many of my close classmates cause most of them went off or joined the party in City East Campus which I missed!!

thats all now...maybe more on fb..

Im going to pack my stuff. Tonight is my last night in Lovaine Hall, i will miss this place very very much!!

so..I looked really tired.

Im graduated

2009-07-20T01:32:00.011+08:00

tml is my big day ^^

Though it would be a simple and less merrier one...but im glad that im officially graduated with a desirable degree classification.

Thank you dad, mum, sisters and brother, my uncle ong ong, my xiang gong and many of you who have supported me spiritually!!

I'm gaining weight these few days by eating things that I wont normally eat, because of the reasons - Im not coming back and I wont be able to eat those foods again and the homemade chocolate cake (I finished it this morning ^^). In addition, I'm trying hard to clear my food storage...I have to try hard to lose weight when im back :S Ooh ya, Tuesday I must eat subway for the meatball.it does appeal to me! kakaz.

Today I spent alot on cosmetics. Never underestimate the cosmetics cost for girls...Dad, I'm sorry for keep spending so much T_T

Hope that today's weather can be maintained till tml!! I need a good weather!!

Hope that tml xiang gong will capture a good angle of me..heez.. xiang gong, this angle looks good and slimmer =P

'you've proven that success comes to those who dare to dream. Congratulations.'

畢業聚餐+最後晚餐+提前生日蛋糕

2009-07-18T05:08:00.005+08:00

謝謝相公為我準備的畢業慶祝餐和那個homemade草莓濃情巧克力蛋糕！超級濃的巧克力蛋糕！當然也是相公在lovaine hall的最後晚餐！

我都差點忘了自己的生日只剩下1個月...
她實現了我想要homemade的生日蛋糕...
果然守信用，雖然提前了一個月，還是很感動下。
除了早起花大錢（尤其是這是我倆的破財月）還心如亂麻...

謝謝你，相公..
謝謝你在心跳加速的情況下為我做蛋糕..
都說了，不要那麽愛我，不要爲了我總是小鹿亂撞...

你羡慕我回國，我羡慕你的碩士學位還有還在歐洲的日子...

無論如何，我們繼續燃燒自己的夢，自己的青春！

我的夢已經快醒了...
希望你的夢越來越精彩...
恭喜你的德國夢想越來越顯著了...+u !!

17+u 依然在！
努力把論文做好，接下來就繼續做自己想做的事情，
最好也遇到你想遇到的人，那個bbc咯。

而我呢，會回到自己的根地，
做自己應該要做的事情，
人總是要長大，也要面對現實，
我會等待另一個實現夢想的機會！

相公，不管在那裏，我都會愛你的...
遠距離不會成爲我們感情昇華的阻礙 *羞羞*

最後我要對你說：不要休我！我會乖乖的！

還有還有，你讓我變到那麽胖，畢業典禮牌照不美就是你的錯了 =(