Saturday, 24 December 2011

my wall

Hi, im back to my blog after nearly another 3 months. Time is flying too fast that I din know it has been 3 months since my last post.

Packed myself with a lot of things and I would like to conclude that it's a transformation year for me.

Reflection and new year resolution.

Rumours saying 21 Dec 2012 is the end of the world so no new year resolution needed.

Do you believe it's actually end of the year within a year? What happen if it's not? I'm more conservative so im planning life that will last me another 30-40yrs.

So, anything related to buy/sell/rent in Singapore, do look for me =)

email: emailtopennyng@gmail.com

Meanwhile, promote my property website: singaporepropertydeal.com



cheers =)

Tuesday, 4 October 2011

Some fresh air needed...

3 months later. i finally logged on to my blog to get some fresh air.

Life is filled with too much commitments when you grew older.
No one seems to bother what's ur current situation, the whole picture.
No doubt at all, money is the devil of all things and yet we need it desperately.

A dream for a comfort place is simply too greedy in this world.
Try hard for my dream but it's still failing, but i think im getting nearer!
I truly hope someone who denies me, someone grew me up, will know me one day, after seeing where I channel my energy and money to...

Life is too mysterious that you need to uncover in the mist yourself...
No problem to lost in the mist but must get back to track eventually...

Hmm, one day has just passed and i dunno if i did something more meaningful than yesterday. I hope I did.

World peace! Wish I have inner peace and become happier =))

Monday, 4 July 2011

般若波罗蜜多心经 唐三藏法师玄奘译

观自在菩萨 行深般若波罗蜜多时
照见五蕴皆空 度一切苦厄

舍利子
色不异空 空不异色
色即是空 空即是色
受想行识 亦复如是

舍利子
是诸法空相 不生不灭
不垢不净 不增不减
是故空中无色 无受想行识
无眼耳鼻舌身意 无色声香味触法
无眼界 乃至无意识界
无无明 亦无无明尽
乃至无老死 亦无老死尽
无苦集灭道 无智亦无得 以无所得故

菩提萨陲 依般若波罗蜜多故
心无挂碍 无挂碍故 无有恐怖
远离颠倒梦想 究竟涅盘

三世诸佛 依般若波罗蜜多故
得阿耨多罗三藐三菩提

故知般若波罗蜜多
是大神咒 是大明咒 是无上咒
是无等等咒 能除一切苦 真实不虚

故说般若波罗蜜多咒
即说咒曰 揭谛揭谛 波罗揭谛
波罗僧揭谛 菩提娑婆诃
般若波罗密多心经


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就这么短?好像还有更长的Version.
无论如何,先把这个背熟。。

愿共勉之
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找到不错心经的解释,链接自这里

经文注解
【观自在菩萨。】
「观自在菩萨」,观世音菩萨可指观世音菩萨。这里的 「观自在菩萨」表示观照般若已经自在无碍了的菩萨,不一定指观世音。

【行深般若波罗蜜多时,照见五蕴皆空,度一切苦厄。】
「行深般若波罗蜜多时」 在修行深般若的时候。深般若波罗蜜,加一 「深」 字就分别于小乘也能修习般若,而是大乘才可以明白入手的般若。
「照见五蕴皆空」
「照」 ,有心叫作想,无心就叫作照。照的意思是离开我们的妄念,像镜子照东西一样,明明白白,清清楚楚。
「五蕴」 蕴是指“类、堆”。 佛把世间一切事物总分为五蕴(五类),分别是:色、受、想、行、识。
「色蕴」是物质这方面,一切万物,凡眼所见,耳所闻,鼻所嗅,舌所尝、身所觉,以及意所想到的东西都是色蕴。
「受蕴」我们现在看见了风扇,看见有一台风扇,脑子就有所领受,内心生起一种领纳的作用,来领纳乐境(乐受)、苦境(苦受)及不苦不乐境(舍受)。
「想蕴」就是种种思想。
而我们这个想是念念不断的,念念迁流就是「行蕴」。
「识蕴」是我们能够了别、认识,例如上述风扇转动发声,人最初只听到声音,随即知道是声音,这是耳识;同时传达到意,能分别了知这是风扇转动所发的声音,这就是意识。
所以五蕴里,四个说的都是心,都是精神方面的,只有一个色蕴是有关物质方面的。五蕴都遮盖我们本性,是妙明真心的障碍。
[五蕴皆空],五蕴没有任何一蕴不是空。也就是说世间事物都是“空”的。
「度一切苦厄」 “苦”是痛苦,“厄”是穷困疾厄。佛认为人世间充满了苦, 而人生最基本苦有 [八苦] ,即:生、老、病、死 、「怨憎会」、「爱别离」、「求不得苦」、「五蕴炽盛」(色受想行识这五种东西很盛,荫盖了你,使你的妙明真心不能显现,因此你有烦恼,这是苦的根本。)。如何去除这些苦,得到真正的自在是佛法的根本目的。观自在菩萨在修习甚深的大智慧到彼岸时,以般若妙慧观照世间事物,了达五蕴并非实有,当体即空,因此能「度一切苦厄」。

佛,我皈依你了

很久没有上来抒发自己的心情了,
所以我觉得自己就快得忧郁症了。

没有人听到我的倾诉,没有人带我离开那深渊,
我继续被金钱蹂躏,被她带着笑脸碾过我的身心...

如果有人带我离开,并给我的灵魂添上快乐的颜色,我会一直感激他.

我已经竭力了,无力向我曾经幻想的日子走进一步。

我跟很多人说,我这样下去我会得忧郁症,我并不胡说。
有人说,忧郁症是会传染的,我不否认。

我觉得自己的思想越来越极端,越来越不健康。

到底谁能够带我走?

大舅常要我念心经,他说那能在我失落时带给我平静,给我力量并带我走向对的方向。
刚认识的友人说,佛教带她走过很多失落的日子,那是她的力量。

我想,我需要一个精神寄托,一个宗教。

佛,我皈依你了。。。

Saturday, 23 April 2011

New Blog

Hi Guys....

As most of you know, I have just returned from Bali. I really love Bali... I have decided to share the information I collected and my travel experiences. However, I feel this blog isnt suitable as it contains too much of my personal secrets that I dont wish to reveal to others/public..

This blog has been serving me well for years after my wretch.cc blog... I love writing non sense on my wall and pollute my readers' eyes...haha

Now, I have decided to open a new blog to write about travel & food- a more proper blog without much pollution but more information. I can't leave travelling behind in my life.. I knew it...

So, please support my new blog : travel-cuisine.blogspot.com.







I may still come back this nie-zi's blog for very personal thing that I wish only close friends know it...

Cheers =)

Monday, 21 March 2011

Most wanted target of year 2011

Another post. Hardly seen me as a frequent blogger after I started working...

Well, i just can't wait to announce my largest target of the year!!

Many people would think that I wanna get married but hell, no one wanna marry me...and i also dont want to get married with minimal financial base.

So...my dream for this year is to quit fingernails biting!!

This bad habit has been bothering me since I have memory. Grandparents tried to quit it by saying fingernails biting would curse parents and those taboos. but i failed to quit them.

Most recent action i have taken was in 2006-2007 i think. I used to study & camp at Christine's house during exam period. She had the same bad habit too and her bf got her a bitter solution to apply on fingernails. Everytime you bite, you get the bitter taste which reminds you to stop biting. I applied during my camping which could last to 2 weeks. She succeeded after 1 month but I failed. I like bitterguord so the solution couldn't stop me.

So...I need the determined will power to keep me motivated and reminded that I NEED TO QUIT FINGERNAILS BITING.

Wear glove, apply bitter solution or fingernails polish are the solutions found but none are suitable. Firstly, we are not in winter country and it's just not feasible for my work. Apply solution and polish aren't any good idea cause i need to handle food everyday!! How I can make bitter sausage??

Looking for other solutions...

You might ask why I need to quit after so many years? Cause someone promised to bring me to cruise all at his expense and I envy those with pretty manicure creations... I can quit it by this year!! please remind me not to bite when u see it!

Well, I can control myself during normal days but not when I'm stressed out and possibly having daydream! I think it's just as hard as quit smoking and it will come back (according to my online research :p)

Sunday, 20 March 2011

Dying hair again after 5yrs

Yea. Remember my first hair dying was 2006 CNY. But i cut it after 1 week. Hair turned out extremely dry and totally unmanaged as I coloured and permed the hair at one go. That's the painful experience that I dare not dye and perm hair anymore. After the hair grew back to my previous shine, I started to perm my hair again in 2010 CNY and it turned out good in dark hair.

Today, I went to Shirley Mah, at jurong west for my haircut. When I take buses, I always see this neighbourhood saloon packed with people so I was telling everyone that I wanna give a try next time. On this lovely Sunday, the shop has merely few customers and I got it with student price $14.40 (normal price $16). The boss offered student price when I asked about the price.. (Hee, I look young, boh bian =P) Anyway, the hair cut is not fantastic. So so loh...

After the hair cut, I dyed my hair with the famous liese bubble product. Got it with marshmallow brown. I was a little bit nervous and my bf did not get the hair dying process right that I decided to carry on myself..There was a 10min time lagging and hence the result was not pleasant - uneven colours.

The colour on top are good but hair below ear length remains dark... Sad... I hope it's not too obvious/ugly... omg... I think it is too obvious that I dyed it myself...


Anyway, i had a great and lazy weekend. Always hope the sunday can stay a little longer but it always goes too fast. I will start counting the day again... OMG MONDAY!!!

Monday, 14 March 2011

Happy Anniversary

Love is in the air.
HAppY aNniVersary to us.
Iphone is real cool =D













Sunday, 13 March 2011

常常来到自己的空间,想要写些什么,却不知道要写些什么。

就只能写些现在的生活吧,也不外乎工作、爱人和朋友。别忘了还有每个星期四的瑜伽课,对于我这种3分钟热度的人来说,坚持上了一年多的瑜伽课,代表我真的很喜欢。其实,新加坡的生活真的有的无聊,但也挺不错的。星期天依然很放松,很悠闲地跟爱人看看戏、做做饭、做做家务...

工作还是老样子,但是如上次看塔罗牌的预测,我有机会上课学习,是好的。所以我会去花些钱上这个课,然后去考试。若通过考试,我就有一个证,也挺想拥有的一个证。

爱人还是老样子,有时候气死我,有时候他被我的无理取闹气死...呵呵。今天是我们牵手纪念日,3年了...呵呵...

朋友,各有各忙的。有位朋友正办分居手续,有些遗憾。因为性格不合,还没办华人婚礼,所以他们决定离婚了... 惋惜啊!婚姻好像真的很脆弱, 生活在一起2年了,忍不住了,平静地协议分开。希望他们各自会找到更适合自己的另一半。所以说,不要找最好的,要找最适合自己的。

我呢,要努力赚钱,最近花在脸上的钱越来越不受控了,但我真需要啊!努力赚钱!!!

Saturday, 5 March 2011

Sense of Fulfilling!


Feeling great after achieving another dream - to climb mount Kinabalu.

It's never an easy task to me and it's more difficult than I thought, especially to an asthma patient. The biggest challenge I had was the breathing difficulties. Until I was really near to the peak, i rested 5min every 10steps to get my breathing back.

So folks, please train yourself, physically, mentally and the breathing part! try to get some acute mountain sickness medicine before the trip.

Sabah is a very relaxing place with nice people around. Either the passenger or the people doing business such as backpack hostel staff or the car rental lady boss.



Wish to go back for a relaxing holiday soonest. Ah, wish to stay in Shangri La Hotel for a night or 2 with love one... It's toooo romantic!

After coming back, I have to adjust and fasten my pace to adapt to the fast pace of concrete city. Start facing the cruel fact, the cruel people and the cruel work again...

I love the holiday because of the slow pace, the nice people, the achievement, the travelmate!!

It's time to be anxious for next leave application for my Bali Trip!